Causes

Birthday Girl (Flashback)

"Good morning Yuki!" a cheerful voice greeted me as I entered my year 3 classroom. It was my class teacher.

"Good morning Ms. M" I replied cheerfully because knowing it was my birthday. My parents are going to come to school after break time to celebrate it with my classmate. Even though I didn't have any friends it still felt really good to have your birthday party at school in the classroom with your friends (more like classmate). It was the nostalgic feeling of happiness that I now could not remember. Putting my bag in a box where you usually put your bags. I used to call them cubby hole. I still don't know what it was called but it definitely isn't a locker. The first thing I did after putting my bag was running away to the swing that was on the left side of the football field. While playing on the swing I saw a girl that was pretty famous in the class. Her mom or grandma owned a hotel, she was smart and pretty while I'm the ugly person who gets bullied by people in the class a lot. I didn't understand what being a loner and bullying was at that time. I thought it was a normal thing to get punch in the stomach from time to time. The teachers never said anything about it so I thought it was just the kid playing with me. The only reason I hate school that time was because I hated studying. I was the idiot, the loner and the one who gets punch in the stomach. I cry but teachers never really cared because I'm too scared to tell them the reason why I'm crying. Those girls told me not to tell anyone and being the idiot I am I didn't, I was too scared. When my parents ask me why my stomach hurts I would blame to the trouble maker boy in the class and looking back now I feel really stupid. Even though there were like three girls who bullied me the popular girl in the class never did anything to me. She was kind and pretty and I was the exact opposite which hurts me a lot. "Good Morning Sophia!" I shouted from the swing to her, who was walking with her younger sister chatting away. I jump off my swing and skipped toward her. Smiling she replied back
"Good Morning Yuki".

"You know what, my mom and dad is coming today to do a birthday party for me after break time in the classroom!" I exclaimed happily while walking beside her to the classroom.

"That's really cool!" she replied back as enthusiastic as me. Then as if she realized something she turned to me with bright eyes. "Happy Birthday Yuki!" She squealed out loud.

"Thank you" I replied back happily.

When we arrived our classroom, I entered first and sit at my table waiting for more people to say happy birthday to me. The next minute Jia came bursting in the classroom. She then started babbling things with Sophia. Jia seems really close with each other. They play with each other and even did some sleepover things. I was never allowed to do that because of my over protective mom, but even if she allowed me, no one would even invite me because obviously I had no friends.

"Happy Birthday Yuki!" Jia shout out loud while walking to my table.

"Thank you!" I reply with a smile. A smile that wasn't fake.

I then decided to go outside. I didn't know the reason why but I just walked out of the classroom and there I saw my crush, Nick. He was as usual walking with people chatting casually and happily.
In the class there was this thing where they guess who had a crush on who. The result was that Nick, the popular cute boy and Sophia, the pretty girl in the class have a crush on each other. Everybody keeps talking about it, but these two never accept it even though they are pretty close to each other. I was obviously jealous but I played along the class because I just was too shy to tell my feelings. It's really weird and impossible because obviously he never really cared about me.

"Sophia is in the classroom!" I said teasingly because obviously everyone in the class does that and I just want to fit in.

"Who cares about Sophia. I'll throw this lollipop to the fan and let it fly and hit her. It might poke her eyes too you know!" He chatted out to his guy friend on his side, Udom. They both start laughing and I stupidly thought they would really do it. I rush to the classroom and told Sophia about it. She got mad about it and the next minute when Nick entered the room Sophia starts to punch him in the arms. Me watching it I did not react or maybe I just forgot how I reacted back then. Nick got angry too and punch Sophia's arm back. Then they start to continue their fight until the teacher came back. I didn't really know what happened but the next minute I got blamed that it was my fault they got into a fight. Sophia was crying and Nick was mad. I was so confused. Ms. M look at me in the eyes and start babbling and asking what I've done wrong. I didn't cry though because I thought it was really my fault.

"Sorry Nick. Sorry Sophia." I apologized to both of them. They just nodded in return. The mood was really bad. Words were spread about me getting these two people into a fight. I wasn't happy at all until after break time, when my parents came with cakes and tings to give out for the class. People sang Happy birthday songs to me, talk with me telling me how cool my parents are. They were really happy about the things my parents gave out to them. I felt like the happiest girl in the world. Even the bully didn't lay a finger on me that day. It was really weird how dumb and stupid of me to think that everyone would become friends with me after this party.