Cryaotic X Reader FanFiction: No Signal

• Can't •

"Oh Moo. I wish I had a memory span like you."

I thought out loud, tapping the fish bowl.

"It must be nice... Only remembering stuff for three seconds... You don't have to work... Or go to school... Or deal with step dads... Or develop feelings for a computer voice..." I laughed to myself.

I shook a few pebbles into his bowl and the fish bolted, pebble to pebble, inhaling the food.

I rolled back onto my bed, looking around.

What to do, What to do...

I guess I should go out and get a job...

I shouldn't even try.

I glanced over to my piano.

Maybe I'll just casually come up with an extremely catchy song that will be famous worldwide and I'll be super rich... Casually...

I grunted and opened my laptop... Shocker...

Cry was online as always.

I skyped him and it rang... No answer.

"Aw c'mon I need you..."

I opened chitchat and sent him a message.

No reply.

Weird.

"Cry...?" I tried his kik, but he never answers on there anyways.

I looked through my contacts, looking for a friend.

My thumb paused at Felix's contact.

I hesitated to tap it.

The picture was from when we were dating. It was him with his arm around me, kissing my forehead as I nuzzled into his chest. We were at a sushi restaurant. I remember that night like it was yesterday.

It was the first time he asked me out to a formal occasion.

I remember spending an hour to get ready. I was really nervous about my dress. It was simple, navy with a white collar, about knee length. I couldn't help but stress and worry about being too fancy.

I remember answering my door to see Felix in a bowtie. The smile crossing his face and the blush he failed to hold back.

"W-wow... You look beautiful..." He held out the bouquet of roses and I cradled it to the side as I kissed his cheek.

"Thank you, Felix." I held it together pretty well.

I invited him inside and Mike couldn't care less, hiding away in his bedroom.

I put the roses in a vase and he held my hand, pulling me to the sidewalk.

He didn't have a car, but the sushi place wasn't that far anyways. I loved walking at night. And I loved pretending I was scared as an excuse to cling onto Felix.

We got to the sushi place, and were definitely way over dressed. We didn't care though, it was more romantic this way.

We ate and got one of the waitresses to take a photo.

She said she took it, but she lied, she waited until we weren't posing to take the picture, and I'm glad she did. Him hugging me like that was something I would always want to remember.

We thanked the staff and walked home.

About halfway I took off my heels, and Felix made short jokes.

We got to my door, and I invited him inside. He politely declined, explaining that he promised his mother he'd be home by a certain time, which I found adorable.

"Thank you... For everything." I smiled and nodded, looking down at my toes.

"Thanks for being cool..." He chuckled. He was such a dork.

I nodded and turned towards the door but was grabbed by the hand and spun around fast. His lips pressed into mine and I just let it happen. I smiled a bit into the kiss and e pulled away, our noses still beside each other.

"You're so beautiful..." He smiled, looking straight into my eyes.

Suddenly the Skype ringtone was loud, and obnoxious.

I shook my head, exiting the flash back.

I turned to the screen, and smiled to see Cry, reminding myself that I could have a relationship like that again.

I just wish I could tell Felix how thankful I am... And how much I miss him.

I accepted Cry's call and his voice was shaken.

"H-hey..."

"What's wrong?" I scooted closer to my laptop.

"I-I'm a fucking loser..." He broke down, I could tell he was pacing.

"Cry, tell me what's going on."

"I'm a loser! I'm a fucking... I got beat up... I'm pathetic! Why can't I stand up for myself? I just let them push me around, I just let them... It's everyone, too! My friends, if you can even call them that... My fucking parents!" He was throwing stuff, yelling through his tears.

"I'm alone in this! What did I do to deserve to be alone? I just try to be kind to people, I try to be nice, and I just get this BULLSHIT in return!" He sat back down.

"I'm here."

"I-I-I know... But..."

"I'm sorry."

He paused, sniffling.

"W-what?"

"I've gotten through everything knowing that you'd come for me eventually. I guess I can't help you like you help me. I'm sorry." Tears began to form in my eyes.

Why was I doing this? Why was I choosing now to rebel? When he needs me most.

"(Y/n), I love you so much. You know that. But I'm sick of being nothing outside of this computer. If you knew me in person, you'd probably call me pathetic too-"

"Take that back."

He gulped.

"I'm sorry... I just can't do this right now."

I looked down, and took a deep breath.

"I know."

"All I want to do is hold you in my arms. You could help me. Whenever I talk to you, everything seems clear. You either console me or set me straight."

I looked back up at the screen.

"But it's hard to come for you, when I know you will see me as a loser. I... I just... I can't lose you."

"I wouldn't think of you as a loser-"

"You don't understand. You usually do, but this time... It's impossible. I'm pathetic. I can't even fucking defend myself, how am I supposed to defend you, keep you safe... I just want you to be safe, I want you to be happy... What if I can't give you that?"

"I've thought about that ever since we met, Cry. I'm still not even 100% sure that I'm not being catfished right now..." I giggled, letting a few tears drop.

"Cry, that's the risk I've taken."