*2 weeks later* It's December 20th! For the past 2 weeks you and your brothers haven't really talked much. It's like you all are growing apart. You just now start to notice it. Your best friend (best friends name… YFN= you friends name) is over. You: (YFN). I am really sad right now. (YFN): why? You: Me nick and Joe don't talk anymore. It's like we don't care about each other anymore. I mean I try to talk to them and they just ignore me! I don't know what's wrong! (YFN): it's ok. It'll get better! You: really this will get better? Follow me! You go to Joe’s room. You start crying. You: Joe. I saw him! Joe: saw who? You: the man! Joe: What man! You: the one who raped me! Joe: oh I'm sorry I'm busy can you and your friend please go away? You walk out and slam the door behind you. You: SEE! (YFN): I'm sorry! He hugs you...you: wait there's more! You walk to nicks room. You: Nick! You run to him. Nick: I'm busy (YN)! You: But nick! Nick: go away please! You: (YFN) fell down the stairs. Nick: he will be fine please go away! You walk out. You: I TOLD YOU! They don't care anymore! (YFN) hugs you. (YFN): look It's late and my mom wanted me home by 11 and it's 11:15 I'll see you later! You: ok! Bye! You hug him/her again. He leaves. You go in your room. You go back into Joe’s room. You: Joe! ME AND (YFN) HAD SEX! Joe: did you use a condom? You: no! I'm pregnant! Joe: ok. Go tell mom! You go to him and grab his shoulders and start shaking him. You: WHAT'S WRONG WTH YOU!! Joe: stop touching me!! He hits your hands off of him. You: I give up. You and nick obviously don't care about me! You go to your room and go to sleep. You wake up in the morning and go down stairs for breakfast. You sit down at the table and just sit there. Joe Nick you your mom and dad are there. Mom: so kids. Christmas is in 3 days. Any last minute gifts. Joe and nick: No! Mom: (YN), I don't even know what you want for Christmas! You:*mumbling*For Joe and nick to care about me again. Mom: what did you say honey? You: I don't want anything! Mom: you've gotta want something! You: well I want, Kevin walks in the door… everyone but you get up and run to him and hug him. You go up stairs. You lay in your bed looking at the celling. Time passes by and someone comes into your room. Kevin: there you are! You: go away. Kevin: fine! You: wait! Kevin and danielle come in and sit on your bed beside you. Danielle: what's up kiddo? You: Joe and nick don't care about me anymore! Kevin: yes they do! You: No! Mom and dad don't either! They never even asked me what I wanted for Christmas! Well they finally did this morning! All I said was nothing. But the only thing I want is for our family to be close and caring for each other again! Kevin: we are! You: watch! You get your phone out and call Joe. It rings 2 times then goes to voice mail! You: now let me see your phone. He gives you his phone and you call Joe! Joe: hello...Kevin: uhh nevermind. You hang up then call him from your phone and it rings twice then to voice mail! You: see he is ignoring me!! Kevin: no he's not! You: yes he is! You all just don't get it!! No one does!! Nobody cares about me anymore!! Kevin: well me and danielle do. You: thanks. You hug them. *Christmas eve* it's getting late and you and your brothers normally all squeeze into Kevin or Joe’s bed to sleep and you do it every year. You: Joe, are we all sleeping together tonight? Joe: no I can’t tonight. You walk away sadly. You go into nick’s room. You: nick, are you gonna sleep with us tonight? Nick: no I can't I have to...uhhh…work on some music. You walk away more sadder. You go into Kevin’s room. You: Kevin, your voice is shaky. Kevin: yea? You: will you sleep with me tonight? Kevin: of course! We do every year! Are Joe and- you: no! They are too busy. Kevin: hang on. He walks into Joe’s room and grabs him and pulls him into nicks room. You can hear him. Kevin: you all are so mean! Our sister wants to sleep with all of us as a tradition and you all are too caught up in Nick and Joe land to even care about her! Nick: I have to write some new music. Joe: I'm too old for that! Kevin: Dude! I'm 23 and married and I still am! You all are too! Come on! He pulls them both into his bed room. nick: Stop! I don’t wanna sleep in there You look at them with tears in your eyes. You push through them and run to your room crying. Kevin: way to go! He comes to your room. You: go away! Kevin: no! We aren't breaking this tradition! You: But I don't wanna be with them! All they care about is them selves! Kevin: we can just do it then! You: really? Kevin: yea! Whose room? You: in here. Kevin: is that ok if danielle joins in? You: yea! Kevin: ok I'll be right back. He goes and gets her. You lay down in bed. Then they come in and you all lay down. They fall asleep and you just lay there. You get up and walk to nicks door and he was asleep with his head on his desk. You walk over to him and you just look at him. Then you run your fingers through his hair and then kiss his head and you walk out and you shut his door quietly and walk over to Joe’s room. He is on his laptop. You walk away quietly. You go down the stairs a little bit and sit on the stairs and stare at the Christmas tree. You sit there for a while and then fall asleep. You wake up in the morning by Joe kicking you. Not hard. Joe: (YN) wake up. He kicks you again. You open your eyes and he runs back down the stairs. You get up and drag yourself down the stairs. Kevin: good morning! You: hey. You sit on the couch and wrap a blanket around you and you put your knees up against your chest. Your parents come down stairs. Nick: good morning mommy and daddy! Dad: good morning! They sit on the couch. Mom: now wait guys. We have to say something! (YN), you never told us what you wanted so the guys promised me that they would take you shopping when the malls open! Joe: Joe never agreed with this! Nick: neither did nick! Kevin: Kevin will take you! Danielle: so will danielle! You: you can't just buy me what I want! Mom: what do you want? You: I want nick and Joe to actually try to make it look like they care about me! Joe: I care about you! I woke you up this morning! That takes a lot of care to do! You: really Joe! When was the last time you and me had a nice conversation with each other? Joe: I don't know! You: 4 weeks ago! Joe: it hasn't been that long! Kevin: yes it has Joe! Nick I care about you (YN)! You: then why do you always use music for an excuse to get out of spending time with me? Nick doesn't reply. You: see! You can't buy my present! You get up and go up stairs. Danielle: I'll go talk to her. You all just start! Danielle runs up stairs behind you. You all go to your room. Danielle: (YN), wanna talk? You: no. Danielle: yes! You: fine! She sits down beside you on your bed. Danielle: ok. So how old are you? You: I'll be ___ years old in___ (how many days left till your birthday)! Danielle: ok and how old is nick? You: 18. Danielle: and Joe? You: 21. Danielle: well look. That's a 4 years difference for nick and 7 year difference for Joe! Did you ever think that maybe they think there told old to hang out with a ___ year old? You: no... Danielle: would you wanna hand out with a 10 year old? You: no. Danielle: maybe that's how they feel. You are younger than them and they might think its un cool to hang out with you! You: but it never bothered them before! Danielle: people change! You: Kevin is 23 and we still hang out! Danielle: that’s cause he never sees you and when he does he wants to spend time with you cause he never can! Joe and nick see you every day. They might just not wanna hang out. It's not that they don't care about you. You: oh. I never thought about that! Danielle: well I will always be here to help you realize that! You: ok. Thanks Danielle! You hug her. Danielle: your welcome. Are you coming back down stairs? You: no I'm gonna stay here! Danielle: ok. She leaves. About 30 mins. later you here a knock at your balcony window. You open it and someone grabs you.
