Monsters

Chapter Eleven "Flashback"

(A/N: Each of the stories are told in the respective perspectives. Enjoy the chapter!)
Alice's Story
Have you ever had the feeling that something in your past is warning you against your future? I have had that feeling for a very long time. I don't remember much about my childhood. Maybe it was fun or maybe it was filled with sadness. I don't know for sure. It seemed like a dream and I woke up at the age of sixteen and lived my life from there. I graduated high school and went to college. I never partied because my school work seemed more important to me. I have never been in an actual relationship, but I have had my heart broken more than enough times. I lived life as if I was treading through water. Being kidnap might have been the most exciting thing that has ever happened to me in a very long time. Believe it or not I'm 25 years old and I'm saying kidnapping has been more exciting than sex and I'm still a virgin. I remember when I graduated from college with multiple degrees. My adopted parents were there and so was my twin brother. He and I were more than siblings, we were each other's best friends. We told each other everything. He was the one I heard as I went up on that rickety stage to shake multiple hands and receive a piece of paper. He disappeared after graduation had ended. All he left behind was a note telling me to simply survive. I never knew what he meant by that. I could have sworn I saw him one day while I was shopping. He was stuffing small items into his pockets and into his jacket. He looked rugged, like a mountain man. We made eye contact and as soon as I took the first step he disappeared into the crowd of people that entered the store. I have never felt more alone than when he left. I lived in solitude and dove myself into my work. You guys actually for once brought me out of my abyss. You guys have made me feel more alive than I have before. Things are awaking inside of me and I feel as if I will soon discover what has been missing my entire life.

I looked at the guys and gave them a small smile. They stared at me with wide eyes. It was somewhat unsettling but soon they all broke out into smiles. TOP scooted closer to me and the rest gave me approving looks. "Now. Whose next?" I looked at each of them. TOP and I made eye contact and he looked down at his hands quickly. Seungri spoke up, "Can I go?" I nodded my head waving for him to start his tale.

Seungri's Story
Where to start with my story. Let's just say I was the popular boy in school. All the girls loved me and the guys envied me. I had big plans. I was going to travel the world and see what it had to offer, but of course I had to serve in the military. I planned on serving my two years and then leaving as soon as I got back. I remember the day I left. My mother was crying her eyes and heart out and my dad looked at me with pride in his eyes. He told me that he was proud of me and that I was truly a man. It broke my heart to leave, but I had no other choice. I got on the bus and looked back to see my family standing there waving at me. That was the last time I ever got to see them. I trained hard and well. I moved through the ranks and was brought up to the board. They said they have a special assignment for me. I thought it was something simple, but it turned out to be something else. Something worse. I don't remember much, but I do remember waking up in my cell chained. It shocked me when they came in and told me what happened. They explained the procedure and then proceeded to tell me that they contacted my family and told them that I was dead. I remember the anger building up inside of me. I felt the rage toward the government, toward myself, and some toward my parents. If they would have listened to me I wouldn't have been in that situation. I could be in America or France right now living in peace, but instead I'm here serving time for no reason. I consider all you guys as my brothers. If I haven't met any of you I probably would have gone insane. You guys gave me sanity and I thank you guys for that. I feel peace when I'm around you guys. I can be myself. I don't have to hide. In a very ironic way, I'm free.

I looked at everyone and I felt GD place his hand on my shoulder. I looked over at Alice and she was smiling. It made my heart warm up a bit to see her smiling at me. "That was great," she whispered. She looked around to the rest of the guys, "Who wants to go next?" Taeyang rose his hand awkwardly. She nodded at him and he looked down at the ground in front of him in thought.
Taeyang's Story
There was a girl back home who I had fallen deeply in love with. She was so beautiful. She was like a goddess with fair skin and the silkiest hair. My heart would flutter every time I saw her. I'm pretty sure she didn't know that I even existed. She was dating this guy who was in a gang and was a felon. I don't believe she knew or if she did she never said anything about it. My family wasn't rich so when I joined the military I had aspired to stay in it for as long as I could. I wrote her a letter before I left. I poured my heart out into the letter. I went to her house and laid it on her porch and rang the door bell and fled. I watched her as she opened the door and saw the letter. She picked it up and read over it carefully. I watched as she ripped the letter to shreds. I left her house heartbroken. When I left for training I left a broken heart behind. I became vicious to everyone. I nearly killed someone during a sparing drill. The board gave me a similar mission as Seungri. I woke in my cell chained, but I sat there and stared at the wall. I refused to eat and drink and I spoke to no one. I repented over my actions. I became at peace with myself. I try hard not to be that vicious person again. As for that girl, she is probably married now with children. I sat with the guys but listened as they spoke. I never voiced my opinion. I just sat there and listened. Listening to them helped me to understand myself also. It made me grow as a person. I'm grateful for that and I'm grateful that I have people around me who would never break my heart like that again. I meditate and pray. I guess I'm just waiting for karma to strike me. Until then, I will just sit and wait in peace.

I looked up from the ground and made eye contact with Alice. She leaned over and placed her hand on my knee. The warmth of her hand seeped into my skin and warmed my bones. I gave her a small smile before looking down again at the floor. "GD. Daesung. TOP. Would any of you like to go next?" Daesung cleared his throat, "I'll go."
Daesung's Story
I was a depressed kid growing up. I self harmed and I thought about suicide a lot. My parents feared for me and always kept an eye on me wherever I went. I never had friends so I never went outside. I never smiled. I guess I never truly had a life. My parents were on the verge of moving out of Korea, but they thought it was best for me to stay to serve time. They thought maybe it will help. It didn't of course. I stayed the exact same way. I did all that was asked but I never spoke. I wasn't brought in front of the board like the others. I was actually confronted by Doctor Wheeler. He said that he saw potential in me. I thought that was a stupid thing to say to someone like me. He brought me to this facility blindfolded. I went through immense torture while all the time he told me that it was all worth it in the end. I remember the needles piercing my skin before I blacked out. I woke up here actually. There were people standing right outside of the glass staring at me. I felt uncomfortable and violated. I stayed in here for awhile before they moved me to a cell. I met the others and I think after meeting them I truly smiled for the first time. I actually felt happy that I wasn't alone. I can't help it anymore, but anytime I see them I smile. From my stay here I feel like a completely different person. I feel like if they ever let us go, I could start fresh in society. I woke up a blank canvas. No scars just a faint memory. I'm somewhat grateful for that. I can start over. I can be a new person. I can finally live. It feels great.

I could feel a smile spread out across my face. Everyone was looking at me with expressions of acceptance and it warmed my heart. Alice's expression made my heart skip a beat. Hers was filled with joy. "I love seeing your smile," she whispered. I could feel the heat rising to my cheeks so I bowed my head and looked down at my hands. "Can I go next," asked GD. "Of course." GD cleared his throat before beginning.
G-Dragon's Story
My childhood was nothing special. I lived with my parents and older sister. I worked hard in school to get into a reasonable college. I wanted to do something with music in my life. My parents always told me that I was talented and I could go far in a musical career if I wanted to. There was only the slight drawback of my serving for two years, but I knew that I could serve that short time. I only left my family behind. No girlfriend or anything. I had my heart broken to many times to know that it would probably ruin me. I was almost done with my service when I was approached by my commander. He was the one that offered me this so called mission. He told me the basics and I was hooked. I was brought here the same way as Daesung. I was paralyzed by something and blacked out as soon as I walked into the building. I remember waking up to these guys surrounding me. It startled me with them just standing there staring at me. The guards told me everything like they did for Seungri, but my rage was different. Let's just say that there is a reason why our regular nurse got replaced. Doctor Wheeler explained to me after the incident that my role was to lead this group into some battle or whatever. I refused and I keep refusing but he just laughs at me and walks away. He expects respect from me, but I will never give him that satisfaction. He ruined my life and it made me bitter. End of story.

I looked at Alice and she was staring at me with a blank expression. She nodded her head slowly. "Okay. That's understandable." Her remark confused me along with her expression. I expected her to be scared not blank. She turned her head and looked at TOP who was nervously playing with his sleeves. "Your turn TOP." He looked up and stared at her. He nodded his head slowly and I saw his Adam's apple bob as he swallowed.
TOP's Story
I had a simple childhood. Two loving parents with me in a house. I ended up serving and came here. Nothing special about me.

I looked down at my sleeve again. Out of the corner of my eye I could see Alice looking at me in thought. I bit my lower lip and started fidgeting again. "Okay," she said softly. "This was a great start. I hope we can have more sessions like this one again." I saw her get up and smooth her pants down. She smiled and headed for the door. Everyone turned to follow her movements out. "Have a nice evening guys." With that she was gone. I stood up and stretched my sore limbs. I couldn't shake the guilty feeling for not sharing away as we made our way to our cells. I laid in bed staring up at the ceiling deep in thought for the rest of the night.
(A/N: Hope you guys liked the chapter!)