You want it
You want it so bad
They want it
They really really want it
You both want it
Together you desire
You have the time
Together you try it
You try and try
You both try and try
Nothing happens
Why does nothing happen
It frustrates you
You hate yourself
It hurts you too much
They don't want to hurt you
So they stop
You want it so bad though
They don't want you in pain
Physical or mental
They leave
You hate yourself
You try to build tolerance
You try so hard
Together you try again
No you can't do it
You hate yourself even more
They worry about you
You hate yourself even more
You can't stand it
You want something to stop the pain
Numb down the nerves
You are painless
You want to try again
They don't want to hurt you
They are scared they will hurt you
You tell them just one more try
Please let it work
Okay
Together you try one last time
Does it work
No
You want to die
You're afraid they hate you
Afraid they hate you
More than you hate yourself
So you shut them off
Cold turkey
They tell you that they're hurting
You are hurting them
The tables have been turned
You tell them why
They cry
You cry
Together you both cry
The moment passes
For the last time you try together
And it works
It works
Holy hell it works
Together you cry
Tears of joy
Happiness fills your body
Every pain every tear
Everything that made you both
Both of you hurt
Suddenly
It was worth it
All the pain and suffering
It was worth it
YOU ARE READING
Poems
PuisiPoems by me mostly done in English class TRIGGER WARNING Any 2015 poems are after I got out of treatment so they might be very dark
