Birthday Wish//discountinued

Chapter Six: Are there suppose to be arrows or clues for his signs?

Chapter Six: Are there suppose to be arrows or clues for his signs?

It was easier to pretend that I didn't care or that I simply didn't know that they were, well, fawning over each other. But that's the thing, I did care and it was too much. I thought the river 'date' was a sign but I guess he didn't really care about it. It was too good to be true.

Here I go again, feeling unwanted. Casted away like a trash. Feeling like I'm worthless. And even though I'm alive, I feel dead. I always hate it when crying is the only thing that felt good and over a boy is worthless. We're not even together. I just need to put myself together.

When I got to school, banners were lined in the hallways. The gym was packed and the student council were decorating for Valentine's prom. I never went to any of those. There was this guy who asked Savannah to the prom but got rejected because she was looking for 'the one'.

" Is there a problem? " She asked me at lunch. We were sitting in the field's table. I was frowning, of course. She put her hand on mine and I flinched. She looked kind of hurt but I was resentful.

" Its nothing. " She let the subject go too easily. I guess she didn't want me to be in frown town. I wish someone could understand how I feel and that would be a relief.

Talk about weird but I actually felt unusual. Like something's gonna pop out any minute and blow my head up. And when I have those premonitions, I'm usually right.

" Hey! Stella, wow, I think I've gained weight. " Alex caught up with me. After panting and me waiting for him patiently, he finally stood straight and said, " What's up? "

That totally broke my patience and anger. " You made me wait for you for a minute and all you say is 'what's up'? " I snapped and stormed off.

I heard him say " What did I do wrong? ". I doubted he'd even care later. He'd just rub it off like everyone does.

Over the years, I'd learned that people will never understand something until they experience it themselves. I regret hating Savannah's stories when her boyfriend cheated on her. I remember her crying every night. Now, I understand how she felt, except the boyfriend thing. I can never blame Savannah about it, I can't intervene with their feelings. Wow! I am taking this seriously. This is weird.

" You know, these vegetables would be rotten by now of looks could kill. " Sarah muttered in front of me, slipping her lunch on the table. Savannah wasn't here yet and I was the first one.

" Hey. " I greeted apathetically. Whenever she's around, she gives this warm feeling to everyone, like she can be trusted in everything.

I inhaled a sharp breath and said, " Have you ever felt, you know, like you like someone but you can't have him because someone likes him too. Like that person who likes him is really close? "

" Well, to be honest, I don't have a love life so, no. But I know what you're talking about. "

Sometimes, I think that extrasensory senses are within all mundanes, accessed in the deepest parts of their mind waiting for encouragement. Sarah definitely has a seventh sense for love. How did I know that? well, it's just a thought but maybe she had one, well, everyone does.

" According to Einstein, Love is the seventh sense of humans that destroys the six senses and make the person non-sense. " I blurted out getting a confused look from her.

" Say what now? " Added a new voice. The one that I was avoiding all day.

" Shen! " Another blurt. Guess I'm the weirdest person on awkward moments.

" Shen? " I quickly covered it up. " Yeah. Shen, the sign of infinity in Egypt. " and he made an 'oh'.

" Can I talk to you for a sec.? " He glanced at Sarah and took the hint promptly.