I woke up at 2:30 to the sound of rain. Damn it. I thought. It rains so often and I hate trying to sleep with the sound of thunder. I got up and left my room. The rain was coming down so hard and the thunder was so loud I swear I thought there was a hurricane. The house was so dark and the sky lighting up by the Lightning. I got a cup of hot tea and sat at the table. It was really quiet and I liked it a lot. My stomach hurt really bad and I felt like I was about to die. My head was pounding. "Crap" I said out loud. I think in on my period I thought. And of course, 6 days before Halloween, I was. That stupid Bitch came before Halloween. I laid down on the couch in pain and turned on the tv. I woke up around 12 that day. Luke was still in bed asleep when I walked upstairs. I felt uncomfortable and I didn't know why. I woke Luke up and then walked to the bathroom. I shouldn't have turned around because when I did I realized Luke saw all the blood that had bled through my shorts. I am a stupid idiot, why didn't I wear a pad or ANYTHING. I grabbed a tampon and put it in and I walked back to my room, hiding the blood as best as I could. I changed my underwear and shorts right after. I laid down and he climbed into the covers and laid me on top of him. My stitches were still in, I wanted to kiss him so badly. He stroked my back and kissed my forehead. "Luke?" I asked softly... "yeah?" He replied. "I want my stitches out right now. I'm sick of these stupid pieces of shit" I had an irritated tone in my voice. He knew what I was talking about. He knew exactly what I wanted and he replied with,"me too baby." I cried and my tears fell on his chest. He could tell and he held me tighter. "I'm going out with Ariana and Lila tonight." He kept stroking my back and replied "okay where are you going?" ..."the bar." ..."okay don't get too drunk" he laughed.
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That night:
I drove as best as I could in my stilettos. I arrived at the bar and Ariana hugged me. "I haven't seen you in forever!" She said and immediately asked about my face. There weren't too many stitches, there were 3 on each side and I had refused to wear a bandage or anything over them because I really didn't want to deal with people seeing the bandage and it would be to hard. Lila arrived shortly after. We walked inside and sat down at the bar. I immediately suggested shots. I love shots. I honestly wasn't old enough to drink there but I know the owner very well and he doesn't care that I'm only 19. We took a few rounds of shots and then I got a glass of rosé. I don't think I did anything too bad but I do remember standing on the bar dancing to my favorite song. It was a little embarrassing but everyone was cheering me on. I remember being driven home by Luke and passing out on the couch. The next morning was rough. The hangover was hell. Luke asked me what I was thinking, if I was out of my mind drinking that much. He reminded me how much I actually drank, 4 glasses of wine, 3 rounds of shots, a bottle of beer and some champagne. "Why did you do this?" He asked,"that could have been dangerous." I blinked and remembered about the tampon I had in. Crap crap crap I've had this in for too long. I rushed to the bathroom and tugged it out. It was almost bursting inside me. I put on a pad and returned to bed where I planned on staying all day. My stomach hurt and I was having the worst hangover I had ever had. This one was killer and I had a migraine all day on top of all the period pains. Why would I do this to myself. I fell asleep shortly after.
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Halloween:
I was being a slutty cat this year. Luke and I had a party to go to so I could be whatever I wanted, he loved the idea. We drove to the party and got out of the car. Luke walked over and kisses me while holding my waist. We walked in and loud music was playing. I got really drunk and blacked out. The next hangover is going to be worse.
