Servant of Lust

Chapter 5

We fall into a rhythm, James and I. We wake up together in either of our rooms, spend some time together before we part to work during the day. After our last guest we meet up again to spend the night together, cuddling and talking. Occasionally we cry together, relieving our stress like that. It doesn't make the kind of work we have to do better but knowing that there's someone who understands you who basically goes through the same every single day makes it bearable.
When we're together in a bed we are mostly wrapped up in each other's arms, we kiss each other's cheek or forehead but that's always it. I can't even put a finger on my feelings towards him. One may argue that spending as much time as possible with the same person, cuddled up half naked in a bed implies that there is love involved. Then again... what is love? Being in here certainly had made me kind of numb in that aspect. But I know that I feel good whenever he's around and that's what matters, right? Plus he is handsome.

No one apart from the two of us knows what we're doing. We always set our alarm early so that we're in our own rooms once everyone in the house wakes up. I really don't know how the boss would react but I don't want to risk anything especially not with Jeff still having an eye on me.

It's been two weeks since we first shared my room and we're in his bed right now. He has had a pretty rough guest and needed comfort. He lies half on top of me, his head resting on my chest and one arm draped across my upper body. His fingers caress my side softly while my arms are wrapped around him.

"Did you ever feel something when you were with a guy?" he asks.

"What do you mean by that?" I want to know. Usually we don't talk about what's going on in here, we exchange everything that has been going on that particular day and move on to other topics.

"Do you get aroused?"

"Of course I do at times... But it's more like my body's reacting than I'm wanting it. I sometimes even get off if the guy is doing it right. Why are you asking?"

He sighs. "Because it happened to me a couple of times as well and today I... Well I came during it and I feel like... like I'm enjoying something I hate to do."

"Your body reacted to the way it was touched. That happens, James. Don't let such things pull you down, alright?" I press a kiss on his temple and he nods, dropping the topic.

We fall asleep rather quickly that night but we don't wake up from the alarm but from Jen who is shaking us both almost violently.

"What's wrong?" I ask sleepily. " What time is it?"

"11.30. Everyone else is already up. Hurry up, You have half an hour before your clients arrive. Why are you sleeping in the same room anyways?" she starts rambling, clearly stressed out.

I personally only focus on the time and jump up to leave the room, waving at James who's already making the bed.

"I need lube, Jen. Not right now but some time in between, please" I call over to the still gobsmacked brunette as I make my way over to my room. Thank God it's already clean so I just have to prepare myself.

"I'll bring it over with lunch, dear" she calls back just before I close the door.

The morning continues just as every single one does. I have a guest, a short break and then there's already another guy before Jen comes to me with my lunch. It's amazing to have her so I don't have to go down to the room to eat with the other girls. The druggies, I told you about them before. I'm scared that I wouldn't be strong enough to resist when they offer me pills or something. Plus hanging out with Jen is so much more fun.

"So, Mitchy... What's with the sleeping arrangements?" she asks while I'm eating my lunch, tomato soup with old bread.

"It's nothing, we just sleep better that way."