Submit, Alpha

Submit, Alpha #15

"Women stuff. Periods, been having some weird period pains these last few periods. Girl stuff..."~Nicollet

SUBMIT ALPHA #15

I will probably not be the first to admit, but the next day was a little awkward. I know for a fact I wasn't the only one to notice. Kane was unusually quite and broodier than normal. Maybe it had to do with the fact he spent the past week trying to get into my pants.

Liam's eyes kept shifting between Kane and I, that's when I knew for sure something was not quite right here. My solution was to awkwardly choke on my cereal and spray milk out my nose.

"I'm gonna go over to my parents today." I managed to get out after my coughing fit.

Kane's eyes finally shifted up from his breakfast in front of him. "Would you like me to accompany you?"

Those were the first words he had spoken to me all morning. I bit back an angry response. He doesn't talk to me all morning and now he thinks I want his company?

"Uh," I raked my brain for a lie. "No, I have to talk to my mom about... Women stuff. Periods, been having some weird period pains these last few periods. Girl stuff..."

Surprisingly he didn't get the same quesy look on his face that Liam did. Instead his face was twisted into a look of concern. Damn it, he's pissing me off. First he won't talk to me. Now he's concerned with me, looking at me with those sexy steel eyes.

"Are you okay? Do I need to call a doctor?" He asked, pushing away from the table, standing to his full height.

Looking up at his, I swallowed loudly. I hate lying to him. "A doctor won't be necessary." Before he could say anything else I grabbed my bowl from the table and put it in the sink with a loud clank. "I'm should be going."

"You not even dressed." Kane addressed my slight lack of proper clothing.

I looked down at my baggy sweats and old black tank top. "They've seen me in worse."

Not hesitating, I stomped out of the door closing it with a slam behind me. I was angry, mainly angry at myself. I may be a stubborn ass hat most of the time, but I had really taken a liking to Kane whether I liked it or not.

Many mates fell in love with their mate with in seconds, but I was having trouble believing it was possible to love someone at first sight. How could some one be so completely in with a person?

The more time I spent with Kane the more I understood. I wasn't in love, not yet anyway, I was so close to being in love. But I had built up a wall. I was the thing in the way of that last step.

My mother opened the front door, a look of concern plastered to her face when she took in my appearance.

"Hi, mom." A small smile graced my lips.

She stepped away from the door, allowing me inside. "Nicollet! What happened?"

I sludged my way to the familiar couch in the living room. "Nothing happened." My voice was muffled into a pillow as I planked on the couch.

The couch sunk as she sat down next to me. Her hand gently rubbing my back. "You are not your usual sarcastic, pain in the ass self. I know something is wrong. Common sweetie, you can tell me."

I rolled onto my back, staring up at the ceiling. "I'm a mess. I've messed up bad."

"What did you do that makes you think you messed up honey?" My mother encouraged me to open up to her.

"I've done nothing." I whispered brokenly, "Absolutely nothing and that's what's wrong. I haven't tried to be a good mate at all. I haven't told him anything. I haven't opened up like I should have."