My deep depressed life

Chapter 4: Hookahs, Cigarettes, and more

So the first thing I ever smoked was a hookah pen. I was with Declan, Amanda, and Rachael. Declan was having a rough week with his family and decided to ask his friend Britney for one. I was mad at him at first because I didn't want him to do it. But then he kept blowing the smoke in my fucking face so I said " if your just going to blow the shit in my face why don't I just smoke it myself and I did and it wasn't bad. Then we promised not to go anything farther then hookahs but we all know it didn't happen that way.

So after like two days later Declan starts smoking cigarettes and then I was really pissed. That's when I really got made at him and didn't want him to do it. But after a few weeks of him smoking cigarettes I started because my life was falling apart. I wouldn't say I'm addicted because I don't smoke that much I smoked I full one in all the times I did smoke. People always tell me smoke weed it better for you than cigarettes but weed had has stronger smell so it will be easier to smoke cigarettes because the smell is easier to get rid of. I am not saying Declan never smoked weed but I didn't.

The day he smoked weed was the funniest because he came to my house high. So he called to ask me if he could food and if I can charge his phone. I really didn't have any food so I gave home bread and two cheese sticks. He ate them so fast. Then he ran into a parked car and fell into a pile of trash no joke.

The reason why I decided to smoke period because I was tired of cutting myself so I went to smoking. My best friends Cody buys them for me. Cody is my bi 15 year old friend and I love him as in I have a crush on him. I also have a crush on this kid Jack I actually dated him a few times but I never get over him and I don't know why.