My deep depressed life

Chapter 5: Cody

  Cody where do I start with Cody.  I love him I have the hugest crush on him. He is so sweet and nice.  We also share a lot of things in common like we both love Sleeping With Sleeping and other bands like that. He is super generous and will do anything for you. One time I asked him if he could get buy my a hookah and he didn't stop looking until he found one. The problem was he never found one and he wasn't going to give but I told him that he can stop looking for it and he can keep the money. I always give him money even when  I don't have. This habit started a little bit ago.

  The whole giving him money thing is when I asked him to buy me the hookah. I brought extra money with me because i wasn't sure how  much it would cost. It turned it I had a dollar extra but Cody needed an extra dollar to buy a pair of headphones so I gave it to him. That was the day it all started. Now I pay for his cigarettes, weed, drinks, anything he ask for. I start to worry sometimes that he is just using me for money but he is not because if ask him to buy me a pack of cigarettes and I don't have money he will either buy me a pack or give me a couple out of his.

  I once had enough of having a crush on him and not telling him so i has to grow up and do what I had to do. I told him the truth that I liked him not expecting him to like me back or be my boyfriend. He told me that he isn't really ready for a relationship yet. I had to explain to him that I wasn't asking him out I was just being honest and he liked that about that I didn't just tell him that to go out with him but I did it to be honest with him.
  Even though I am dating jack for like the 7th time I don't think that I will ever stop crushing on Cody. It's really not my fault like yes I love Jack but after dating for so many times the feeling just start to disappear. My life is just so confusing and I hate it who I think I love turns out to be someone else but I feel like Jack is the one but my heart doesn't. I wish there was an easier way to figure this out but there isn't and there never will be. I wish that my true love would just find me already and take me out of this pain with crushed and unnecessary relationships that toy with my emotions.

A/N this story is based off of my real life but things are changes around as the names and down actions. Enjoy reading BYEEEEEE!!!!!!