Chapter four.
Stefan's POV
I'm at the park waiting for Elena. It's been fifteen minutes already and still no sign of her. Did she decided to bail on me? Or something happened to her? What if something really big happen to her? My mind keep running with thoughts and I couldn't stop myself from thinking the worse situation that could happen to her. I grabbed my phone out and decided to call her.
Before I could dial the number, she's standing in front of me catching her breath. "I'm sorry Stefan, I was talking to Jeremy and I lost track of time. I'm so sorry." She said breathlessly. "It's fine. So what do you want to talk about?" I blurted out.
"Us. I want to talk about us." She said and we walked over to the bench and sat.
"Okay, what about us?" I asked her, although I already knew what's she going to talk about.
"Figured."
"Like I said. Caroline already told me that you knew about me and Damon. And that you, her and Lexi are in the room next to us, hearing everything. She told me that you were heartbroken and devastated. I'm sorry Stefan, that you have to listen to all this." I noticed that her head was looking down on the ground.
There was a moment of silence.
She raised her head a little and she's staring at me. Probably she hoped that I would say something but I didn't.
"Stefan say something please." she looked at me.
"What do you want me to say, Elena?" I said, staring straight into her glossy brown eyes.
Elena's POV
I can sense some sadness in his tone. I can the hurt in his eyes. Behind those eyes I can see that he's like a broken toy.
"Anything is better than nothing." I looked back down on the ground. Feeling ashamed.
"Fine. Here's what I'm going to tell you." He said. I can still feel his eyes on me. It's like he's using his eyes as an arrow and it shot me right through it.
"Okay" I said.
"Yes Elena. I'm hurt, devastated and heartbroken. How could you do this me?" He threw his hands in the air and raised his voice up a little. How could you choose my brother? My own brother Elena! I'd be a bit more fine with it if it were another guy and move on with my life. But this I can't. How am I supposed to move on when I can imagine you and my brother shacking up together? Kissing and having sex? You need to know Elena, that it really hurts. It's like a million arrows shot through your heart, bleeding internally. The wounds there will never heal. I'll be forever crippled by your love, not being able to move on with my life. I felt betrayed by you and Damon. You were my first real relationship and first love. I loved you with my whole heart. I gave my soul to you. I considered you as my soul mate. You practically lived inside of me when we were together. You were the only world I'd be willing to lived in. I was head over heels by you. There was a time I wanted to ask you to move in with me. " He said and I can see some tears around his eye, ready to be fallen down his cheeks.
"I-I..." I tried to say something but the words got stuck in my throat.
"You know what Elena? I'm done with it. I can't bear to see you and my brother together. I'm severely traumatized by this whole thing. I was there for you and you know that! If we're being honest, I seriously don't understand why you chose him. You're better than him Elena. You're better than both of us." He said with tears streaming down his face.. "He's really hurt. What have I done to him?" I tell myself, hoping that I could make his pain all go away.
