Unthinkable: Color of Love

Chapter 11

Roy removed himself from me and stood up. He grabbed my hand and pulled me up until I was standing beside him. We noticed how close we were and immediately moved apart.  My mother cut her eyes at us and a slow smile appeared upon her face.

“Oh how could you not to tell me? I had to hear this from Tracy (Mrs. Calem) that ya’ll are together.” My ma yelled and I turned to Roy relieved. He smiled and took me back into his arms. My mom walked to us and gave us both hugs.

“Ma he’s only my boyfriend. We’re not getting married. No need for the dramatics.” I pulled away awkwardly.

Roy grunted next to me muttering the word “yet”. I smirked at him and turned back to my mom.

“What are you doing here so late?” I asked her looking out the window noticing how dark it was outside.

“I heard my baby is dating the guy she is sleeping in the same room and bed with. Don’t you think I would have a problem with that?” she asked us sarcastically.

“Ms. Myers I have always liked Tia. If I never tried anything on her then, why would I do it now?” he told her as if that solved everything.

I got into this little conversation by adding, “You didn’t try anything because I wouldn’t let you if you tried.” I snorted and rolled my eyes at him.

He glared at me stating, “Whatever, you don’t need to hurt my ego.” He pouted and held his heart. I smiled at him and turned to my mom and gave her another hug.

“I’m happy to see you here ma.” I gave her a kiss on the cheek. Wow I didn’t realize how much I missed her. I guess I have been gone from home a few days now.

“Of course I’m here sweetheart tomorrow is Christmas Eve.” She smiled at me and my face dropped in shock.

“What?” I yelled and face Roy.

“We have to go shopping tomorrow!” I screamed at him and he quickly agreed. He was probably afraid of me right now. I was losing it. He grabbed my hand quickly and led me to his room before I blew a fuse in front of my mom.

I was bouncing off the wall on trying to figure out what to get people.

“I need to get ma, Jaime, Robin, Josie, Ruby, Leila, Rick, Jon, Trent, Zander, Michael, Mr. Calem, and Mrs. C a gift.” I huffed out to Roy. We were now in his room sitting on the bed watching Law and Order:SVU. Well he was sitting but I was pacing back and forth.

“What about me Angel? I don’t get a gift?” Roy asked his eyes drooping as he sat on his bed. I stopped my pacing and looked at him. I walked over to the bed and sat next him. He pulled me in to his chest.

“I have a different gift for you that can’t be bought in a store.” I looked up at him. He looked down at me questions in his beautiful eyes.

“Your gift sounds better than mine.” He stroked my face and kissed my lips softly.

“What is your gift?” I asked poking his stomach where I could feel his packs through his shirt. He laughed and brought his finger to my chin. He lifted my head so our lips would meet and he kissed me. It was slow and cautious since we haven’t done this a lot. He brought me closer to him and skimmed my bottom lip with his tongue asking for entrance. I rested my hand on his chest and pushed him away from me.

"I hate it when you do that.” He let out a chuckle that held no amusement.

“When I do what?” I asked amused hoping he really wasn't mad at me. All I did was pull away because I just wasn't comfortable with this yet.

“When you push me away like that. I feel like I’m the bad guy.” He muttered and held the bridge of his nose. It was then that I knew he was serious.

“I don’t think that.” I told him and all I got as a response was a shrug. He wasn’t even looking at me. 

“Look at me!” I yelled at him and he shook his head. I took his face in between my hands and turned him to face me.

“Tell me why you think that?” I asked truly worried.

“I feel like I forced you into this. I’m happy that I'm with you. Hell, I'm even elated! But it seems like you only did this to make me happy. This can't be one of those times where you put others feelings before your own. I need to know this is real and not you just hoping to please me. You seem alright with us, but I don’t think it’s what you want.” He told me his face guarded as he stood from the bed. A tear rolled down my cheek. Never would I have thought I would cry in front of someone.

“I do want this. Don’t doubt that. We have been through a lot these past months. We were kicked out of a restaurant!” I forced a smile, but he just stared into space eyes glazed over. He walked to the door and grabbed the handle opening the door. He finally looked up at me, but his eyes were void of any emotion.

“We need to think before we go straight into this relationship.” He stared at me squarely. I held in my tears and faced him squarely.

“Ok then we’ll do that.” I told him without a hint of emotion in my voice. At first I thought he was going to kick me out of his room. But of course Roy is too much of a gentleman. He turned his back to me and left the room closing the door behind him. I heard his footsteps as he walked down the stairs. Every squeak of the stair broke my heart.

As soon as he was gone tears burst from my eyes. I sat there like a girl who just broke up from a long term relationship. And in a way I was. I have known this guy for 3 years and I've just lost my bestfriend and boyfriend in all of 5 minutes. I wish he had kicked me out of his room. I don't need to smell his scent on his pillow and sheets. I got dressed and threw on a big t-shirt. I got in the bed tears still streaming down my face. My tears soon brought me to my dream land. Where everything wasn't so comlicated, where my dad was still alive, and my mom didn't cry every night, and where Roy and I were as close as ever. Before I completely gave in to unconsciousness I wished that dreamland was able to come true. But I shouldn't believe in fairytales even if Christmas is a day away. 

A/N: Okay so the story of Roy and Tia is almost over. I have about 3 chapters left. But I did start a second book about them. I just wanted to know your thoughts about me posting it after this is done. I think it actually has more chapters than this one lol! But please comment on here about the idea or on my profile. Thanks love you lots! :)