Supernatural Imagines

When Its Not Enough DeanxReader

You loved him. The way his eyes lit up when he smiled. The way he could make the corniest jokes at the oddest of times. He was your Best Friend the person who got you through your pain when your parents died. He was your rock when you were spending days trapped in your own head, he got you through it.

When he died you died with him Sam couldn't get you out of your room for weeks and when he left to find Dean you didn't stop him you were selfish you were hoping silently and secretly that if Sam sold his soul you could have your Dean back. When he found his way to the salvage yard he put you back together with glue and tape holding you tight whispering in ear that he would never leave his friend again. You were whole again despite the changes in front of you you were whole again.

You were lost in flurry of the next year , learning about angels, meeting Cas who saved Dean and you, releasing the Devil, all of it happened and you were just riding out the hurricane that was your life. Then you learned about it, the game of chess that the boys were meant to play Dean versus Sam, Michael versus Lucifer. You saw their story play out an outsider looking into the world that was Sam and Dean's.

You watched as the love of your life broke into pieces trying to save everyone, you watched as the one person Dean truly loved blamed himself for destroying the world that he was meant to protect. You accepted your fate as a martyr who would give your life for the boys, for Dean. You went to Detroit ready to make any sacrifice to make sure your boys stayed together, but it wasn't enough. It wasn't enough when you told Cas to be careful, it wasn't enough when you made Sam promise not to anything stupid, and it wasn't enough when you told Dean you would be there for him.

You watched as he drove away from you into the arms of someone else, felt yourself break as he packed way his life into the car that had been your home for years, you cursed the god above you when you saw him happy with someone else. The wall around your heart began building it self up with the memories of his hugs and his words of love,and you sat in the dingy bars drinking till you were numb to the scars he left on you. You told yourself that the fact that he was happy with out you was ok, that when he said he loved her it didn't shatter your heart. You hoped for a day where you would see him and you wouldn't feel your heart soar, you prayed that a time would come where you wouldn't hear his voice in your head telling you lies and giving you hope.

Then the day came again where things changed, he saw you take down a nest of vamps your eyes filled with fire and raw power radiating from your body. He pulled you into a hug as you exited the building rocking you and telling you how much he missed you. He held you at arms length and told you how glad he was to see that you were ok . He watched you carefully as he told you that Sam was alive believing he would see that light come back to you eyes, He was wrong. You asked him if he was done and when he nodded you got in your car and started then engine. He tapped on your window hoping his next words would be enough to bring you back to him "(y/n) I Love You." He was wrong.

____________________________________________________________________________________So this sorta just came to me and I had to write it down I cant tell if its good or not so please give me your opinion and critiques a lot of what I wrote is inspired by the fact that used to be in love with my best friend so a lot of that was actual things I felt anyway comment and message me i love hearing from you guys LOVE YA'LL