Without You (Urban)

Chapter 5

8 months later**

The truth was that Siah had moved on. His love for Rome hadn't changed and he thought of get everyday. His life was okay, but with her it was perfect. His liking to Onyx was growing, because she stayed around. She cooked, she cleaned, and she made sure he was happy and the sex bomb. Onyx was real thick, with a short haircut like Megan Good. She had full lips and her skintone was caramel. Her body was nice and she was larger than Rome. She was far from the beauty that Rome was, but she wasn't bad looking at all.

Siah

Rome blew my phone up everyday. I didn't bother calling her back because I felt that she was dishonest to me. I never lied to her because I felt that she was the woman for me. Rome was rare and she made me look like a fool for her.

Rome

Eight months had seemed like an eternity to me and all I could think of was Siah. He never answered my calls or texts and I was devastated. The next morning I arranged for my jet to leave New York and fly me to California. I could not stand to be without Siah. I boarded and we took off. My father will be enraged when he finds out that I am not at the estate, but love conquers all and my father knew nothing of the love that Siah and I shared. When I arrived in Cali I instantly broke down. How could I leave someone that I loved behind for so long. It wasn't my fault. I didn't understand why my father was keeping me from Siah. I knew he was the leader of the Black Cartel but why did my father make it clear that I could not deal with him or be with him. I couldn't answer questions that only my father had answers to so I left it alone. I called a cab and got dropped off at my apartment. I grabbed my keys to my car and went straight to Siah's home. I prayed silently to myself as the guard nodded my approval for me to enter. Siah was asleep in his room and I sat on the end of his bed until he woke up.

Siah

I was having a dream about Rome and I could smell her perfume as if she was laying in my arms. I woke up dazed as I looked into her eyes. She had came back. Immediate anger bubbled inside of me because she had left for so long and lied to me. "Why are you here?" I said not even looking at her. "Well I guess I should be leaving then, she said as she walked away with tears running down her face. I walked behind her and grabbed her shoulder. "I haven't heard from you all this time and now you want to pop up like everything is all good?! WHAT THE F-CK TYPE SHIT IS THAT ROME! YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU! You played me, but I moved on now. You gave me no choice.

Rome

The words that Siah said had truly stung. It was like a pain that was burning my heart. I looked at a picture on the night stand of he and Onyx hugging eachother and smiling. My heart was broken. If I was honest about everything to Siah, then I would be a snake and unloyal to my father. I got myself in a hole that would forever bury me. I didn't want to betray my father and I didn't want to go against my fathers word. I never showed weakness, but when it came to Siah, I was vulnerable and open. I could never disown my father and I could never walk away from Siah. Without either of them my puzzle will never be complete. I will never know who I am because I am will always and forever be in the shadow of my father. I'm the prisoner of my own blood. "Siah listen, there are things about me that you will never be able to love. There are parts of me that you will never be able to understand. It all makes no sense now but all I want you to know is that I love you and I cannot imagine my life without you." I said sobbing. "Rome, I love you to ma, but you can keep running in and out of my life. Either you're in or out and I can't make that decision for you. Whatever you have going on, fix it. Pray on it and let me know wassup," he said embracing me for a long time. I nodded my head in assurance and our lips met. His lips were so soft against mine and I didn't want the kiss to end. Siah was perfect for me and I knew it at that very moment.