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Ch 11 The Regrets And The Lost

(Origonally this is were i wanted to go in this fan fiction. But yea this story will in in ABOUT 3 or 4 chapters I say ABOUT because I'm not so sure. Also I have a new idea for my next fan FIC I'm makeing but I have a question should I make it our time or the original 2000 years ago thingy?)
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3rd person POV
It has been a five months since that awkward pic nic and early at about 5:34 in the morning (yea I know that's pretty early XD I wouldn't want to be them) The meeting bells rang and everyone got up.
As Eren got up he rubbed his eyes "Da fuq do they know how early it is?"
Eren turned his head to Connie while he was speaking.
"I don't know maybe they are telling us the top eleven?!" Eren said.
INFORMATION
They are all still in the cadets and if I said anything different in the other chapters I'm Sowwy but anyway they still don't have their top en so yea you might see were this is going...
BACK TO DA STOREH
He then hurried and got dressed walking out the door as he could see it was dark. All the boys in the cabbin trudged behind Eren limping like zombies. As the boys reached the training grounds there was a high stage with commander Shadis, (that's right the big egghead mofo XD) Erwin, Julie, Hanji, and Levi.
"SOLDIERS GET INTO YOUR ASSIGNED POSITIONS!!!!" Shadis yelled
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Erens POV
I got in my place next to Connie and Mia( I think that was the girl with black hair's name I'm not sure but what evs) I then saw Shadis pull out a yellowed paper and said, "ALL RIGHT FU** NUGGETS GET IN A LINE BY THE ORDER I CALL YOU IN!"
"MIKASA, (Y/N), EREN, REINER, BERTHOLDT, ANNIE, JEAN, MARCO, CONNIE, SASHA, AND CHRISTA!"
We all stepped up and I was sorta humiliated to be behind two girls.... And one is my crush -.-
"LISTEN UP PEOPLE THESE ARE THE TOP ELEVEN THEY WERE THE ONES THAT WERNT DICK CHEESE LIKE YOU F*** NUGGETS!!!!"
Well that's nice to know.

YATA YATA YATA U GUYS KNOW THIS PART WHEN THEY HAVE A PARTY EREN GETS MAD RUNS OUT THAN NEXT DAY THEY GO TO DA WALLS SASHA WITH THE MEAT COLOSSAL TITAN APEARING EREN EPICLY FAILING YEA OLD NEWS SO.....)
-drum roll-
TIME SKIP
I failed to even touch the Titan I could have killed him but now I'm in a meeting with the other cadets in the middle of town we were now planing to protect the walls I was in front gard and so was (Y/N) and Armin but Mikasa was in the rear gard. We all went out to battle and luckily (y/n) and Armin were on my team #34 (I think that was the group BTW EREN AND EVERYONE KNOW ABOUT ERENS ABILITYS idk I'm just mixing ideas up XD)
I saw Thomas get pounced on by an abbarant and I dashed out to kill it but then (Y/N) pushed me to the side and ran for it.
"IM GONNA KILL YOU!!!!" She said swiftly whisking in the air.
"NO (Y/N) !"
A Titan jumped into the air and smashed its jaws against half her body killing her the way that Titan did long ago to my mom except he wasn't holding he doing it. Bits and pieces of (y/n) flew through the air and I completely lost it.
I shredded all my skin off my arm ripped of my fingers. (Y/N) was everything to me and a fucking Titan got rid of her! I dug into my blooded arms ripping out muscles and then lightning struck me and I began to shift into a god damned Titan even if I live still I will get rid of all the titans for her!!!!! AND IM NOT GOING TO LOSE!!!! I charged at the titans with eyes ablazed and lightning in my muscles I CAN FEEL THE RAGE I ripped its arms off and kept kicking it sincless
"DO YOU THINK YOU CAN GET AWAY WITH THIS HUH? DO YOU!!! At this point it's stomache was just a smoking abyss of nothing I then decided to kill it raising my foot wince again I slammed it into his neck crossing a shreak of terror.
YOU DONT..... You........you don't know what it feels like.
(AND THATS ALL FOR THIS CHAPTER :D BYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEE)