My Broken Heart

MBH.4

alyloony isang bagay na gustong gusto ko sa pag susulat niyo is lagi bugbog muna ang puso ng bida kaya sinubukan ko din hahaha

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Nandito kami ngayon ni Karl sa may pool side habang nakakababad ang mga paa namin sa tubig

"Thank You"

"Hmm? Thank You for what?"

Kabigla naman kasi tong lalake na to bigla na lang nag tThank You

"Thank you for opening up everything to me,"

"Haha yun ba, nakakahiya nga e after 7 yrs sa ganitong situation mo pa ko makakasama ulit"

"Haha sabagay pero I'm glad na nag kita na tayo ulit I really missed this late night talking but the difference is ..."

"The telephone"

"Hahahaha yeah the telephone"

Nakakatuwa alalahanin ganun katagal na pala ang naka lupas coz before when we got home from school mag bibihis lang kmi then when the phone rang around 5:30 I knew it's Karl and mag uusap kami until 2am without hangging up the phone

" But seriously when you start ignoring me I don't know what to do kahit anong papansin ko sayo nun di talaga natalab so I started dating girls at school na ayaw mo na lumalapit sakin until I and Tina became official for almost 4 years but it also didn't work I admit nung una I still wished ikaw yung kasama ko pero as time goes by minahal ko din si Tina"

I splash some water on him haha ang emo akala ko ako lang may karapatan mag emo

"Ang emo mo Panda Karl!"

Yeah I used to call him Panda because of his fluffy cheeks that can compliment his gorgeous face and macho body.

Yup way back in HS MVP siya sa Basketball kaya chick magnet to e kaya that night na sinabi niya na mahal niya ko I started ignoring him well no one can blame me we've been bestfriends for 3 years and I can't fall in love with my bestfriend but from the day I satrted ignoring him and I saw him flirting with those girls dun ko lang na realize na ang bobo ko for letting him go

"Tsss don't call me Panda di na tayo bata!"

"Ahahah ok ok go ahead continue"

"Hmmm ok san na ba ako? Oh yeah so I met this girl she's everything and I fell in love with her hard but that night we met sa 11 monkeys that is the night She told me that she doesn't love me anymore and there's this guy na mahal niya. Fuck I still love her but mas humihigit ang galit ngayon"

I can see na tumigas ang panga niya and his fist parang manununtok. And I hold his hand that's the only thing I can do.

"Karl I know its hard, I know how hard it is really pero Karl sana mawala yang galit sa puso mo kasi if you really love her kahit masakit hahayaan mo siya sumaya sa taong minamahal niya oo mahirap tanggapin di yun ganun kadali pero kailangan. For so many fucking nights I always pray na sana di na lang siya namatay na sana iniwan na lang niya ko para sa ibang babae tapos makita siyang masayang humihinga kasama ang ibang babae kahit di ako ok lang basta buhay siya kesa makita siya inililibing sa ilalim ng lupa"

Tumingin sakin si Karl at kahit naka ngiti siya kita sa mga mata niya ang lungkot

"Kahit kailan talaga sa ating dalawa ikaw tong matured"

At bigla niya ko tinulak sa pool walangyang to naka jogging pants ako at long sleeves kamusta naman diba.

"Karl! Baliw ka! Madaya ka talaga!!"

"Hahahahaha ang epic ng itsura mo Claire"

"Letche ka!!"

Umakyat ako palabas ng pool and hinubad ko yung Jogging pants and shirt ko

"Woah miss hold it right there what do you think you're doing?"

Oh bakit? OA niya parang ngayon lang nakakita ng naka 2 piece buti na lang partner na black na bra and panty tong suot ko

"What? I can't swim wearing those clothes Karl! Hahaha"

Nag dive ako at lumangoy papunta sa kabilang dulo ng pool and when I came iut of the water oh bless me ghad naka boxer na lang siya

"Well kung hindi ka lang broken iisipin ko pinag nanasaan mo na ko"

"Lol! Shut up Karl! Asa ka naman no!"

"Well you're body Claire is not bad uh compared to you before big fat piggy!"

"Argh! Karl! I so hate you! Pwede babpast is past!"

Well yeah dahil kay RB naging fit ako before bewang ko is 33 ngayon it's only 26 not bad right? And so pagiging baboy before isa na kong sexy Claire ngayon.

Nag swimming lang kami hanggang mamalayan namin na 5 am na pala

"Oh Karl may pasok ka diba?"

"Oh shoot yeah I do have a meeting around 8 pa naman"

"Ok so you better go take a shower may extra clothes dun sa closet you can use it, I'll cook some breakfast coz I'm dead hungry already"

"It's fine I can postpone the meeting I owe the company"

"Shut up you need to move and wag ganyan"

"Alright! thanks Claire"

"No...thank you"

While waiting for the chicken to be cooked isinaksak ko yung phone and like what I'm expecting too many voicemail messages are there

"Hey Claire where are you?! It's been 1 fucking month since the last time we talked pls I'm worried call me"

That's Fran my bestfriend well siya ang naging sandalan ko syempre my family also pero wala e need to have some space to think

"Hey baby where are you? 3days ka na di umuuwi sa bahay I miss my baby sister."

"Claire.. Ija *sniff* please pakatagtag ka aa don't forget tita Estee is always here"

Tita Ester, RB's mom ayoko muna pakinggan to lahat baka maiyak pa ko.

"Hmmm sarap ng amoy aa.. You cooked adobo?"

"Oh Karl tapos ka na pala , yup let's eat masarap yan!"

Matapos kumain natulog muna si Karl sa sala sabi niya gisingin ko siya ng 7 around Alabang lang din naman ang venue ng meeting so malapit daw

Nandito ko sa Veranda naka tanaw sa matataas na building at habang dinadama ang init ng araw sa katawan ko pumikit ako at tumingala iniisip na si RB ang naka yakap sakin at init niya ang humahaplod sa katawan ko

"RB, I promises to be strong pero not now I still need mor time to move on. I know seeing me on this kind of situation won't make you happy but please give me more time"

At ayun na naman ang luha at nag unahan lumabas