Miss X is another typical 18 years old girl who is in awkward phase of life. Uncontrolled hormone of love surge but afraid to take her first step to be in a relationship. Most of the young adult may encounter this puppy love moment but Miss X is still looking until one day she meets Mr. A, then she discover Mr. A's Facebook. She notices that Mr. A had once attending the most prestigious boarding school in Malaysia and her curiousity gets higher. She starts developing the crush feeling on Mr. A who is the same age of hers and attending the same university. She has met Mr. A but her shyness takes over all her body. Whenever she sees Mr. A gets out from the class, unconsciously she smiles as wide as she can with happiness radiating in her eyes.
Six years later, Miss X is still the same she used to be. Single and not looking for love as she had realized her responsibility is the reality of life while to have a commitment is a fantasy world which she shuts door tightly with the heaviest lock that she ever owned in her life.
Miss X is spending her time at her study desk, reading Twitter timeline then she notices a new twitter comes up. It is retweeting by her classmate. She reads them and the words are spot on her little heart. She still remembers that feeling when she used to have one sided crush on Mr. A
@StoryOfMyLife: Crushes are called crush because they crush your soul and everything you stand for
Another twitter comes up and it is from Mr. A and he said something indicating that he is still single. Miss X snorts and laughs quietly. "You're not single Mr. A! I don't like this kind of guy," she huffed. An idea invades her brain and quickly she writes on her personal writing book.
Hey, Mr. A!
Wow, it has been six years since I knew your name and I still can remember how our YM (Yahoo Messenger) and Twitter conversations makes my heart flutter. When I see you walking outside the class, my lips can't stop smiling while my pair of eyes are looking at you, stand so tall among your friends but my pair of feet glued on the floor. I am afraid to approach you and asking you to be part of my friend list. Then on our facebook, we are not friends anymore with your reasons. Later, I knew you have added your other friends, specifically girls on your facebook. My stubborn part of me only limits myself by following your twitter.
Miss X looks at the first paragraph. She still vividly remembers that specific day. 'X, I am sorry. I want my Facebook not to have girls as my friends,' but then later she knew Mr. A has added his circle friends specifically girls. Till now, she does not understand the real reason.
Hey, Mr. A!
You are not handsome but your personality attracts me. This one sided crush, I think I have hid or keep in a tight box. It is being kept with more safety measures after I knew you have a fiancé, which she is among my acquaintance and your best friend is one of my circle of friends [What...Why... Hurm..]
There was one night, I cry hard to Allah to have this one sided crush disappears or being thrown away, far away so that there is no seed of hope planted for second time in my heart.
[I was wrong... or right?]
My wish do come true and every day I have been reminding myself, "A, you are the most unique man I have ever known but you end up with a girl from the same place you used to study. So, lame,"
Miss X looks at the last words on the paragraph. She smiles, 'Yeah, so lame. I will try not to end up like this situation. Man, I have been staying in this place for six years and I have understood their ideas. I need a partner who has more fresh ideas,' she whispered. She continues to write again.
Hey, Mr. A!
You know that feeling of one sided crush is still there, lingering, threading, what else...? Floating in this little heart of mine, wondering are you and I really destined to be together because I used to dream about you for six times.
Miss X stops and thinking again about the paragraph. She never dreams about a guy as many as she dreams about Mr. A and every time she wakes up, she still remembers the dream. She smiles but the slight feeling of hurt and regret for not trying pursue Mr. A is a little feeling she keep in her episode of life. 'Miss X, there will be another amazing guy will be in your life. Do not give up!' she knocks her head and continues writing.
You know, sometimes I have wished that I will be the girl who have courage and meet your parent by telling them, "I like your son and I wish to be his partner in crime," but your fiancé beat me. Lucky for her to take her first step and now I have this feeling that I do not want to talk or socialize with her. She is my enemy in my fantasy world.
Hey, Mr. A,
I like you but not love-type-of-feeling because I am a girl who guards my feeling from crashing hard on rock.
Miss X has finishes her writing and put her signature on the paper. She closes the book and looks outside the window. She has come to sense that Mr. A is a man she does not want to approach because he has a best friend which is her friend and that friend is somebody she does not like very much. Mr. A is a man whom she always have a serious crush but he is just a man whom she can say, "He is my acquaintance that I had met during my university," because Mr. A has never been friends in the beginning and Miss X just feeling lucky to know and used to have a one sided crush on Mr. A, a man that is popular among her circle of friends.
She put her personal writing book to the side and switch on her mp3, playing her favourite song from Bangtan Boys, 24/7=Heaven.
-The End-
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Music: 24/7=Heaven, Bangtan Boys
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My Earphone Series
AcakWhen I am listening musics with my earphone, I will enter to another world where there is me, you and music. The music and lyrics were created and sings by the artist, creates an indefinite stories for us to live in.
