alone.

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Isolated. I feel isolated from the world. I don't smile much anymore. Jay isn't here anymore and I feel alone. Jay is my 18 year old brother and he left my mom and I by ourselves to go to the airforce. I'm not necessarily angry at him. I guess I'm more disappointed that he could just leave us like that.

Maybe he didn't have a choice. It's just really unfortunate that he's gone and now I'm basically on my own. My name is Aria and I'm 15 years old. I've lived in Brooklyn all my life. I do not come from a wealthy family and I live in an apartment. To my knowledge, my dad is not around. I've never met him. From what I've heard he left when I was born and hasn't been seen since. Yeah it's a bummer but I don't need him. I hear the front door open.

"Mom, is that you?" I ask.

"Yes, its me. I'm finally off work. Are you hungry?" I just nodded.

"Anything in particular you want? I'm tired and I don't feel like cooking tonight. I hope thats okay." I nodded and asked if I could order pizza. She agreed and that was that.

"Have you talked to Jayden yet?" My mother asked me.

"No, I should call him though. He's so far away and that sucks. I'm so used to having him around. I miss him mom." I sniffle a little and I noticed tears in my eyes and I quickly wipe them away. I'm not one to show my emotions.

"I know Ari.. I miss him too. We're going to be okay though. I promise. I'm gonna make things right for us." I nodded, hoping that she keeps her promise. "You ready to go back to school tomorrow?" She questioned. I just slightly nodded my head. Although I was lying. I don't want to go to school. I barely have friends and my classes are hard and I'm struggling a bit. Pretty soon the pizza was here and so I got my food and headed to my room. I turned on Netflix and started watching a show called "American Horror Story". It's one of my favorites. It was around 9:30 when I decided to take a shower. I gathered my clothes and everything else that I needed and turned on some music. I got in the shower and started washing my long curly hair. I combed through it and then I started washing my body. I soon, got out and dried off. I put on lotion and deodorant. I brushed my teeth and finally I was ready for bed. I took a long look in the mirror and sighed. I don't have a lot of self confidence unfortunately. Maybe I will someday. With that I turn off my light and lay down and instantly fall asleep.

*Next Morning*

I hear my alarm go off. It's 6:30. Which means time for school. I get up and go wash my face and brush my teeth. Then I put my hair into a neat fishtail braid. I picked out my clothes for the day. I decided on light skinny jeans and a long sleeve black tee shirt. I quickly put my clothes on and grabbed my black converse from my closet and a pair of socks. I put on my backpack and walked in the kitchen to grab an apple and a granola bar.

"Mom I'm ready!" I shout within the walls of my apartment. I hear her come out with her purse and keys.

"Alright let's go." She said. We headed to the car and within 20 minutes we were at school.

"Thanks mom. Bye love you. See you later." I said while kissing her cheek.

"Love you too have a good day." I nodded and walked in. I headed to my locker to take my books out and I grabbed my binder and my math book since I have math for my first period.

"Hey Aria." My best friend Cameron said approaching my locker.

"Oh hey Cam. What's up?" I replied. Slightly anxious. Don't get me wrong Cam is cute. Scratch that. Extremely cute but I know for a fact that I don't have feelings for him. We've been friends since like diapers. So I'm confused as to why I got anxious speaking to him.