Handwritten//Shawn mendes

track ten

Dear Paige,

This will always be the hardest part for me to write. The day we lost it all. I saw you kissing him, of all people, and I thought: that's it. I saw you with him, and I thought you had played me all along. Brody. You were standing there in a tight embrace and all I wanted to do was yell at you.

You hurt me. What you didn't know through, was me and Brody had grown up together. We had a fight later on in our lives and eventually stop hanging out. I never cared, until I found out you were his girlfriend. He must've hated me so much and he had gotten what he wanted.

He had used you to get at me. This is the weight

-Shawn

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Shaking, Paige turned away from the scribbled note. Her heart hammering in her chest, she recounted the events of that night. Brody, coming up to her, piss drunk, almost a much she was. He softly spoke to her, so much nicer than Shawn had a few hours ago. And suddenly...

Paige didn't want to. She never had any intention of hurting Shawn. She was lost, confused, hurt and very, very drunk.

But never the less, she had betrayed him. She cheated on Shawn, kissing her ex in her hazy confusion.

Stupid.

And with that, she pressed play.

I wanna go back,
Forget that it's over
Paint it in black,
When you left me alone
I never knew,
She was sleeping next door with the kid I grew up with,
And I can't go back to her anymore, no

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight

Put you in the past,
Try to forget you 'cause it's over
And every time you ask
I'll pretend I'm okay
You're inside my head
In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you,
And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you pushed me away
And when you try to take me back, say someday you will change,
But I don't wanna wait.

It hurt to think he hurt.

But she knew it was her own stupid fault.

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If u ship Braige right now you might get punched. I'm down to fight you rn tbh

-amelie xo