Lonely

.2

I woke up the next morning feeling okay, I wasn't feeling happy but I wasn't sad. My alarm had gone off at 6:00 but I don't usually get out of bed until 6:30, that leaves me an hour before I have to leave for school.

I reached over and grabbed my phone from my night stand unplugging it from the charger. I had several notifications from Twitter saying that some of my favorite bands and YouTubers had been tweeting while I was sleeping. I had a message from Braden, also.

Braden:)
Hey, Jay. I know you're sleeping but I just want to remind you that you're loved, and no matter what your family says about you, I still love you and my family still loves you. if you need anything I hope you know you can talk to me anytime you need. love you jay:)

He would send me messages like this to wake up to from time to time.

Jade
Thanks Braden. I know you're always there for me:) love you too, Braden.

My day was already made when I woke up with a text from him. He brings so much joy to me but I don't know if I want to tell him that, I'm afraid I'll get major friend zoned.

It was about 6:20 but I got bored of being on my phone because no one else had texted me. I got out of bed and turned on the shower, laying out my towel and my outfit for the day. I turned my music on pretty low since my family was sleeping, even though they didn't care about me, I cared about them.

I had my favorite spotify playlist playing taking in the beautiful notes written and song by Barcelona, one of my all time favorites.

I jumped out of the shower putting on my black skinny jeans and a plain white T with my Adidas Superstars. I put on a thin layer of foundation, a little bit of concealer, a little bit of nude eyeshadow, and a few brushes of mascara.
By this time it was about 7:00, so I just blew dry my hair leaving it in its long, natural waves. I had pretty thick hair, so it took about 20 minutes to blow dry. I walked downstairs and grabbed a bagel my mom had toasted for me, put some cream cheese on it, and ran out of the door. I was about 3 minutes early leaving, which is surprising for me.

Before I pulled out of my drive way I had a text from Braden,

Braden:)
Car won't start. Pick me up?
Me
You're lucky I'm a bit early this morning.
Braden:)
You love me:)

and with that I shut off my phone. Yes, yes I do love you. I thought. I love him too much. It's not normal to fall in love with your best friend, so why did I have to?

His house was about a mile and a half out of the way from school, I would probably get to school at about 7:50 instead of 7:45, but that's okay. School didn't start until 8:00 and the only time I got there at 7:45 is to have a little bit more talking time with Braden, but since I'm taking him to school we'll have about 15 minutes extra talking time.

I got to his house and decided I would just call him and tell him I was here. It was November so it was pretty cold here, plus my leather jacket was all the way in the back seat and I didn't really want to have to get out to get it, put it on, and walk all the way up to the door.

He came out and jumped in the front seat.
"Hey idiot." he said.
"Hi, stupid," I laughed, looking up at the incredibly hot smirk. It was like, well, you know Harry Styles? Well it was like his smirk. That's how hot it was. Like it made me want to rip his clothes off and-
"Uh, Jay? Shouldn't we be getting to school?" he said in a questioning voice.
"Ye-Yeah uh I-I'm sorry," was my stuttering obvious? I hope not.
"Jay what's bothering you?" he looked concerted. Should I tell him?
"Braden.. I can't tell you this right now we need to go," I said putting my car into reverse so I could back out of his drive way.
"Jay, you can be late to school this one day. Spill it," he said looking directly at me.
"Braden I can't. It'll ruin our friendship a-and I c-can't." I was so nervous what if he makes me tell him.
"Jade, I know you like me like more than a friend. You don't have to be nervous about telling me this," he said that so cooly. What? How did he know? I've never told anyone! Did I accidentally say I wanted to kiss him out loud?
"U-um how'd y-you know?" I questioned.
"Jay, we've been friends for 6 years now, I know you better than you know yourself."