My Life Diary*-*

5

I'm tired..
Tired of smiling when I want to cry..
Tired of loving you..
Tired of getting hurt..
Tired of pretending that I'm okay..
And you know what??
I'm not okay..
I say I'm okay, but I'm not..
Why can't you see what I am without you? Because without you I am nothing..
Without you I only want to cut myself..
I can't handle this life anymore..
I don't want this life anymore..
Sometimes when I fall asleep I hope that I'll never wake up..
But than I see you and don't think about this anymore, because I know you love me (as a friend) and if I were dead I would hurt you..
And that's the last thing I really want..
Because I love you..
More than I want..
More than I should..
But I can't fight against this feelings and that's why I hate myself so much..
I hate me that I love you!!!