Love Isn't Always Fair | a.b

9. In the Depths, there lit a Spark.

 9. In the Depths, there lit a Spark.

I glanced at Andy, almost as if I was piercing him with my own eyes. He, however, didn’t outstare me. His expression didn’t show anger or curiosity, but he gave a blank stare. Almost as if he was trying to understand, or most likely comprehend. I would’ve thought he looked at me in pity, or in a soft way, that I couldn’t manage to see. I remained still, my back against the wall, and his tall frame stood in front of me. His arms had remained by my sides, but not even the slightest touching me. We remained like this for more than just a minute, with pure silence.

However, I did not dare to look down. I knew he was not clothed, and the only piece of clothing he wore had already dropped to the ground. 

Somehow, I felt myself tense up. But not because he was naked, it was because the once soft heart became to burst through its stoned wall. The feeling of building up those tears and hurt feelings, began to overcrowd my mind and my heart. It felt as if I could easily breakdown, here and now. My chest tightened, and my soft-side began to take over. The clenching of my stomach, and the wobbling of my legs caused me to hold myself against the wall. My lips began to tremble, but I bit upon my lip hard to hold my sobs back. It almost sounded if I just choked, and I once again showed a sign of weakness.

Why here? Why now? Couldn’t I just cry in my room, alone, for no one else to see me? Why cry in front of the man who I began to hate, to distant myself from, to just run away from and never look back at? But why hate him Why was it that I didn’t want to see him again, when he was the one who saved me? Maybe I want to just be alone, to die alone.

I felt as if the jar that I held my feelings in were about to burst, and break through the chains holding them back tight. 

“Evelyn..” Andy whispered, concerned. His shoulders relaxed, and his arms fell against his sides.

My eyes started to water, and the trembling of my lips let out the sobs I tried hard to fight back.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-“

“STOP THAT!” I burst out, tears rolling down my cheeks. I looked at him in the eyes, his eyes filled of pity and sadness. His eyes widened a bit, looking surprised and taken back.

“Don’t look at me like that..” I whispered, my hands curling into fists.

“Evelyn..”

I let out a gasp for air, my stomach clenching, wanting to breathe but the continuos sobs prevented that.

“I can’t..” I cling myself against his tall figure, my hands grasping his strong shoulders. 

“Evelyn..”

“I can’t.. do this no more.” I cry, feeling the black eyeliner run down my cheeks all together with the teardrops. I feel myself slowly slide down with him to the floor, my legs wobbly and I felt my body heavy and I felt literally weak. I bury my head onto his chest, and place my hand on his arm.

“The pain,” I whisper, completely numb, “It hurts.”

“Please Andy, Take the pain away..” I whisper, “I want you to be the one to end this pain... There is no reason for me to even....” 

His thumb caresses my cheek, “Evelyn, don’t say such nonsense. You are so much worthy being here.” He whispers, “People like your father or mother don’t deserve your tears. You’ve been hurt too much, but It will be okay because I’m here, with you, right now.”

I look at him, meeting with his electric blue eyes, the ones I saw that day I was running away from my fiancee. 

The day I was heartbroken, the day everything came falling apart. I didn’t know if to trust anybody anymore, because I would always end up being betrayed. Being lied to, getting hurt. I was too nice to everyone, giving them second chances, helping them, that sometimes it would end up hurting me. Besides all, I always loved Damon, no matter how wealthy he was, or how beautiful he looked. I would always feel better by his side, I would always forget I was with a greedy family and a luxurious background. I would only see him by my side, and our love and that’s all I would see. But when I saw him kissing one of my friends that I trusted the most, everything came falling apart. That’s when I realized where I really stood in this world. No one’s side.

But something about Andy, it sparked hope. But I didn’t let it, because I feared of being betrayed and lied to again. The fear of getting hurt again. Even how convincing Andy looks, the problem here was trusting. I didn’t know what to do in those three months. I practically lost my parents, my friends, my home, everything. It felt as if I were unknown to the world. I tasted the wretched.

I didn’t knew if it was worth even living.

You’re weak! You’re useless!

My eyes widened, and I jerked away from Andy. “No.. No.” I mumbled, and I shot straight up. “Get away from me!” I yelled at him, who looked at me with wide eyes. “I am strong, I am not weak.” I hissed, starting to run away.

“NO! Wait! Evelyn!”

I passed by the living room, and ran towards the door.

“Evelyn?” Jake called out, confused.

I yanked the door open, and ran down the hallway. 

I was escaping, like I always did. Escaped reality, escaped my fears. 

Andy’s P.O.V

“Don’t let her get away!” I shout, wrapping the towel around my waist, running out my room. 

“Who’s getting away?” Ash asked, walking out his room, confused.

Jake looked at me, not know what to do, but I fled out the apartment and ran down the hallway getting a sight of her skinny frame running.

“Wait, Evelyn!”

But she had already escaped.

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Rain: Well, this is a short chapter.. wattpad is acting like an a-hole but here it is *~* Vote and comment!!! Listen to the song on the side, its type soundtrack, but its perfect for the beginning to end!!! :D