Fragile Desire

13. DRIVE

Song of the day - love me harder (The Weeknd)

Its one of my fav.....

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"Suddenly she felt strong and happy. She was not afraid of the darkness or the fog and she knew with a singing in her heart that she would never fear them again. No matter what mists might curl around her in the future, she knew her refuge. She started briskly up the street toward home and the blocks seemed very long. Far, far too long. She caught up her skirts to her knees and began to run lightly. But this time she was not running from fear. She was running because Rhett's arms were at the end of the street."

Margaret Mitchell, Gone with the Wind

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Hazel's POV

It's so weird, I didn't even inform Paul and Harley about this sudden decision. I don't know what's wrong in my life, I never take decisions this fast. I was busy in my own thoughts when I realized Caleb will reach any time here after finalling his deal. I took a heavy breath looking at my stuff and was glad that unlike other girls I have too little things to pack, no make ups, no perfumes, no varieties of clothed. Phew! I remember Harley having 4 bags when she went for a month to her ex's house. How do people fall in love? Not my thing though.

I was packing all my clothes, few books, few photos cause I really don't know when I will be back here. Portland is quiet far though, I hugd a photohraph of granny in her younger days, she still looks beautiful. It was then I felt presence of someone in my apartment, and I clutched one of my heavy book tighter to slap who ever it is, what if he is a robber, and when I turned it was Caleb, weird! aint it? I kept the book back in my bag and closed it.

I don't know what exactly happened, I was lost in his greenish grey eyes, sexy yet so mesmerising. I never behave like this, what's wrong with me? That's what I thought when reality struck me, his phone rang aloud, his ringtone is some song I guess of ummmm, Fifty Shades Of Grey! Earned it. Yes! I had to see that movie cause my so kinky fuckery friend Harley forced me to accompany her. Yeah I did liked that movie cause I already read the novel.

Urghhhh! I never think this way, Never. So right now I have to take my bag to his car, books really are a pain when you have to lift all of them together. Before leaving I left a note of the refrigerator door about me shifting to Portland for some days. I managed to lift both of my bags and then I realized the importance of a boyfriend, who would help me lifting my luggage and help me open the door and do all sugar sweet things, and then leave me in a bitter state. Noooo! I am happy being single. Caleb saw me coming and took both of my bags and kept it in his car. So this guy has a good side too, lol ofcourse he has a good side, he gave me a job, he is helping me stay at his mansion, whatelse do I want?

My brain is a füçking a$$hole, the voices in it have started again. I sat in his car and took my diary out to avoid the situation I had created above, I would have kissed him infact, and thats so not like me.

Caleb's POV

She is beautiful. I love the way she is, she somehow manages to skyrocket my heart.

And there on air this song bursted through the speakers, I was about to change the song when she stopped me from doing, she holded my hand for a second and that gave me a hint that she must be liking the song.

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you

I never heard this song, but it sonds like Apocalyptica's version.

I try to make it through these lies, that's all I do
Just don't deny it.
Dont try to fight this
and deal with it

Weird song it is... She likes this????

and that's just part of it
If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
just go and leave this all behind
'Cause I swear (I swear)
I don't care

It's such a depressing song, I know her life is not on the right track, but sad songs makes it even more worse. The mood shifts to the higher scale of sadness.

I try to make you see my side
I always try to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do
I'm getting buried in this place.
Ive got no room your in my face.

I can't hear this anymore. I switched off the radio, I could see her mood turning to lower side, she looked like a baby sitting in my car's seat. Man! When will I stop noticing this girl. "Hey", I said just to divert her mind from her sadness, she didn't even hear it. I tapped her shoulder and I felt the adrenaline rush just by touching her, I want to kiss her right now and I fùckïñg can't control myself. I parked my car on the highway, unbuckled her seat belt and kissed her on her lips. She tasted sweet and oh my god, she won't work for me anymore, I was about to stop my stance when she tapped my shoulder.

IT WAS A DREAM! Day dream! I won't ever do that, I never even did this, day dream? I need to talk to John about this. It's getting on my nerves, and i will be spending nights with her in my house, though in different rooms but that will get weird for me and I am behaving like an ãsshólè.

I parked the car near a restaurant without even asking her anything. "Where are we going?" She asked me in surprize, I kept the conversation short and told her, " For dinner and there's a hotel nearby where we will b spending our night." She was shocked and horrified too, I could make this out from her reaction but, I chose to drive cause I wanted to spend time withe her, I mean more time alone. I thought it would have been best as she would have no option but to stay with me in the car.

But things are getting more awkward and weird as time is passing, and she will be staying in my mansion so I got what I wanted.

We entered the restaurant, before I could order something for us, she already ordered for her, " Grill sandwhich and a coke, please". She always surprizes me, "And you sir?" The waitor asked, "Same", I ordered without moving my eyes from her. She is a girl full of surprize, the way she acts normal in front of me makes me feel better.

I now started a conversation with her, " Your car will be safe till you don't get a place to stay, you can come with me for the office and the details for your duty, I will be sending them and ofcourse you need a phone too." Beforw I could finish she opened her sweet mouth,"Oh fudge! The car."
What's wrong now, "Anything wrong?" I asked her, I could see everyone looking at us, like we took their most precious privacy out of their life. "It's not my car!"

What!

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