Me and Louis Tomlinsons baby boy

he will never understand why or will he?

"Please someone let us out" I cryed. soon the door flung open "wheres Jaxon" I asked Harry at Zayns he said simply "well can you take me there" I asked annoyed "nope" Harry told me

"and why not"

"i have had stricked orders to not let you see jaxon until you tell Louis" Harry nodded

"FINE" I screamed in harrys face I turned to face Louis "you are the farther of my son JAXON" I scremed 

"what how" he said 

"are you that stupid" I said I turned back to Harry "now take me to Zayns" I demanded

"fine"

"c-can i come too i want to see my son" Louis asked quietly

"your son mate he's my son you didn't know until now so just shut it" i told louis 

"sure" harry said 

soon we were in Harrys car and on the drive to Zayns the drive was quiet but short so it wasn't that bad when we got there i got out of the car and almost ran inside the house. Once i was inside i saw zayn watching the wiggles i walked over to him and Jax they were both asleep i smiled to my self for a short moment. i picked up Jaxon carefully so i didnt wake him or zayn i started to walk to Zayns room because i knew he would put the baby bag there. once i was there i spotted it sweet i was right like always. i got the bag and walked back down stairs to see everyone sitting on the launge i was about to walk out of the house "put the baby in my bed now" zayn scoled at me "fine" i walked back up to Zayns room and layed Jaxon down. once i had gotted back down to everyone i was told to sit by Harry i did. "now talk like adults" zayn told Louis and I "sorry to say Zay but if you haven't noticed im 16 not and adult so no i will not talk like one" I told him. "Maddy why didn't you tell me" Louis asked 

"because i dont know i guess i was scared and thought you would leave me once you found out" i told him

"well you were wrong i loved you and i hated the fact that you left it tore me apart that the girl i love was gone"

wait you just said love i thought you where happy and in love with Eleanor and didnt want me around so i stayed quiet when i got here" i spoke quietly

"im happy with her i love the sound of her being my girlfriend but im not in love with her ive always been inlove with you and when you came back i thought you left me for someone else i guess and just accted inlove with El because i thought you had someone else" he told me

"i felt a few tears fall from my eyes "i cant do this i cant" i thought to myself. "look im sorry Louis but i cant i just cant do this Zay please take me home please take me and Jaxon to mine my mum and dad want to talk to me about something" Zay nodded "I'll get jax" he said to me 

"thank you Zay" i got up and got the baby bag i looked at Lou still teary eyed "im sorry" i said once more.

soon Zay was driving me home when we got there i got out with the baby bag over my sholder and got jax out he had woken up when zay brought him down i didnt want louis to notce he was awake so i took him of zay. when i got inside i sat jax down to play and went into the kitchen to make us some food it was around 6pm and jax hadded had diner to my suprize there was food out with a note "made you and bubba some food i hope you have had a good day will be home around 7:30pm and we can talk then". i smiled to myself my mum and stepdad have been really nice to me sice we moved back to london. i got the speggetti bolinas out of the bowl and put it in the microwave soon jax and i were sitting down eating after dinner jaxon and i ran around the house so i could wear him out so he could go to bed soonish at 7 he looked at me rubbing his eyes

"mummy i bed now"

"okay bubba lets go" i held his had and we walked up to his room i got him in his monkey pj's and layed him in bed. i went back down to the launge room and put "the lucky one one" soon my perents were home "hi darling" "heyy mum and dad" they came and sat down on either side of me "so sweetie we have been thinking"

"about" i asked worried of what they were going to say

"well we were thinking it would be a good idea if we brought a flat for you and jaxon"

wait what i was so confussed now

"well you have been doing really well and we kind of would like to travel around the world and if we could sell this house as well as the one in Doncaster then we could buy you a little flat it would be close to your school and a daycare for jax im sure you could get Zayn to look after jax while you worked. this is a chance to learn responsibility and we think you will bennifit from this if you agree." my mum told me

i just nodded "okay then sounds like a good idea umm just before we say anything else do you mind watching jaxon for an hour or two he is in bed asleep and shouldn't wake up till morning but listen out anyway" i asked. 

"yes of curse we will" my mum said to me "thanks" i said back 

i grabed my phone and house key i walked i didnt know where my legs were taking me i just walked and walked tears streaming down my face. i dont think i have ever felt like this not wanted not loved the next thing i knew i was standing outside Louis' house. i didnt relise what i was doing until i heard my hand hit the wooden door. Eleanor answered "can i help you" she asked "move" is all i said i knew Louis would be in the games room with Harry Ni and Liam i didnt know about Zay but when i got in i saw everyone Perrie Danni and the boys these were the nights i loved the nights i missed "i didn't invite her in she told me to move" Eleanor said with a bit of rudeness in her voice. Louis looked at me my tears were dry now but i still felt lost but why.

louis' pov

i looked in the direction of the door way and saw maddy tear stained face. my instent thought was did something happen to jaxon i got up out of my spot. "its fine Eleanor" why did i just call her by her full name i never do that. i walked over to maddy still standing there like she had seen a ghost. "do you want to talk" i asked in a quiet voice not trying to give away to everyone that didnt know i still love her that i love her. Maddy didnt move so i took her by the hand "come with me bub" i heard her sniffle from crying. i took her up to the atic i haven't changed it since we decorated it a few years ago when she saw it i saw her smile a little and that made me smile. i got her to tell me everything about her moving then she said some thing i never thought i would hear come out of her mouth

"i did love you and to tell the truth i never stoped being in love with you, i cry almost everynight because i think of the mistake i made by not telling you the truth and keeping jaxon a secret from you and im sorry. im sorry i didnt tell you when i came back i am please just forgive me" she cryed "i never ment for this to happen" more tears fell.

"Maddy its alright i never stoped loveing you and i wish you told me when you found out you were pregnent. but in a way its good that you didn't because now we can start all over again lets call it a new beginning. i dont know how I'll be as a dad but all i can do is try right I'll pay for day care and i will look after him while you work. I'll be here if things dont go to plan and i just want you to know i want to be the best dad to our son i love you and i love him even though i haven't spent time with him i hope you know i will" i told her with emotion in my voice she could tell i was being sensear she nodded "but what about Eleanor i dont want her to hate me just because i am the mother of your baby and the fact that she probably thought she would have your first baby not some chick five years younger then you" she said as one last tear fell from her eye. "look i'll talk to her and we can figgure something out dont worry about her" "okay" maddy said "i should get home to talk to my perents okay do you need a lift?" i aked

"no but thanks anyway and thankyou for listing to me."

i walked her out but before she left i gave her a hug and wispered in her ear "i understand why you didn't tell me i do". and with that she was gone lost in the night's darkness.