One Direction and 5SOS Imagines

Colby or Harry?

-A/N
This was actually a dream I had. There was a bathroom scene that came after the last scene but I decided not to jot that one down. Hope you enjoy!!

I was walking hand-in-hand with Harry, the one I was with at the time, past the bunch of BOCES kids. Within that group was my friend Alyssa. She was my one of my best friends but she was also my drug dealer.

"Alyssa!! Hey I have $10, I'll come by later and pick it up." I tell her my plans.

She nods at me and goes on her way. I leave Harry to attend the BOCES people since he was one.

"Bye." I look into his eyes and then kiss him. He me back lingering for a second and then leaves with a grim look on his faces. I always knew he hated BOCES.

I made my way to Colby's car. I know that I shouldn't feel for him but I do. He knows I like him to, he also knows I'm with Harry. Lately he takes every chance he gets to piss me off but I still hand around him. I don't understand my feelings towards him. Harry takes care of me, he seems pissed off all the time giving him that bad boy look but behind closed doors he's and angle, he's tall, his hair is long and beautiful, and everything about him turns me on. So why do I have this thread of compassion for Colby. I don't know honestly. I have to get over it sooner or later.

I get to the car and hop into the back seat with Colby and some girl. We always wait for the BOCES people to come back. Within those few hours we either just sit here or we drive around and do something like go to the mall, go have a drink, some food maybe, or we randomly drive to pass time.

The girl and Colby are talking about something but I can't hear them. I'm zone out thinking about him, thinking about Harry, and about my feelings. I think I'm in love with Harry but I couldn't possibly be when I'm sitting here with Colby, getting jealous that I'm getting no attention. Maybe he's trying to piss me off again. If he is, it's working.

"Jillian." Colby calls.

I look over to him. My pupils dilate allowing light to come in and a glowing orb to appear around him.

"How are you and Harry? You know your relation and all?" He asks seeming interested but I know he really doesn't care. He is a good guy he really is. Just not to me, because he knows I'm doing wrong by liking him.

"Great actually. We're doing fine together." What a lie that was. For Harry maybe not but as for me? Yah that was a little white lie.

"Well that's good." He smile and turns to the girl giving her a kiss, not just a peck but a lingering one. My eye lids droop half closed as a look down at my lap then out the window. Who, that was unexpected. It's usually words or little actions he does that sparks my anger or sadness, he hasn't gone as far as kissing another girl. A tear slips my eye. I wipe it away and smile. I chose what hurts me. If she makes him happy so be it, if he's doing it just to hurt me well he failed at that.

"Aren't you guys the cutest couple!" I interrupt with my semi-fake happiness for them. Colby looks to me confused and then thanks me.

••• A week or so later •••

I don't know what happened but apparently Colby and I are a thing. Harry and I are really good friends still even after I told him. We've only dated for a month or so but I was crushing on Harry for years. But that feeling occurs for him now.

What's wrong with me? Why can't I love or even like one person? How come my feelings are bipolar when it comes to these two men in my life?

Currently Colby and I are in the back seat of his are waiting for the BOCES kids. It'll only be a minute or so. They leave at 8am and they come back at 2pm, it's 2:58pm now.