Pained (Jungkook BTS werewolf Fanfic)

chapter 2

===-=== JUNGKOOK'S POV ===-===

V's words were buzzing through my head. Why would she do any of this? I loved her, scratch that I LOVE her, present.

As the taxi sped across the motor way these thoughts were running through my head. I really need to talk to (Y/N) and find out what's happening. She's my mate and no matter what I will always care for her.

Sadly I had to say V-hyung had a point, not once have I ever seen (Y/N) cry, she had even told me once that it takes a lot to make her cry, it has to really affect her unless she extremely stressed or tired. I'm a horrible person for doing this to her but why did she just suddenly leave me? I thought we were doing great, we only argued over silly things in a joke-y manner, which we always laughed about after as well as always listened to each other.

My mind was now becoming foggy, I pushed away my thoughts and focused on the blur of the road and cars we passed. I need to talk to her if it's the last thing that I do.

I can feel her grief and loneliness and it's eating away at me. I could tell she was in a state just by looking at her but I ignored it and pushed away the doubts of hurting her; she put me through hell so I thought I should return the favour.

I can feel all of her unhappiness cloud over me.

Anxiously I ring my hands together, willing the car to go faster, needing to be with my mate even if she hates me.
Slipping in and out of thought, (Y/N)'s pained expression flashed through my mind, physically making me cringe.

The taxi pulled off of the motorway and onto the road into (Y/TownorCity) Finally I started to recognise my surroundings, I was close to her house.

The taxi turned on a junction and headed for the centre of (Y/TC). I was only 20 minutes away for her.

I eagerly fidgeted in my seat, the car passing one of the high schools. Her old school. I won't see her any more, all our plans for her to travel with the boys and I. Going to school in Korea. They're all ruined. I shook this out of my head, more reason why I had to see her now.

Starting to get restless, I picture her perfect face, her to die for smile and her crazy yet bubbly personality but snap out of it quickly pulling my attention to the road again.

I saw the turn for (Y/N)'s street and began looking out for her (house/ apartment). The taxi parked and I swiftly jumped out off the now motionless car.

Bee-lining straight for the front door and knocked loudly. I heard a female voice from up stairs and some shuffling. The door opened to the man I know as (Y/N)'s (step-dad/dad) .

"Hel-lo" I say awkwardly, he nods and looks pretty tired. "Is (Y/N) here? I need to- err speak with her." I ask nervously in broken English, knowing he doesn't speak korean. "Sorry, she was in a complete state when she got back and won't come out of her room" He stated sadly. I nodded, not sure exactly what he said but getting the gist of the idea, sending a pain shooting through me, I had caused her to be incredibly hurt, I didn't think clearly before I acted.

"Can I please see her? " I beg. He stays still for a minute, obviously thinking it over. After what felt like an eternity he nodded, opening the door more and stepping out of the way for me to come in. "Thank you." I say in gratitude. "Just... Try to fix things between you. You made her happy." He said. Understanding enough of his confiding I nod and send him a small stressed smile.

Heading up the stairs, I thought about the constant theme everyone kept reminding me of, that they had never seen (Y/N) in such a state. (Y/N) was one to never let bitter thoughts bring her down around friends and cheered everyone up. She was strong, independent and was always there for me when I was stressed or just wanted to talk. I ruined her. I thought bitterly.

When I reached the top of the stairs I saw two bedroom doors wide open, one containing (Y/Sibling/N) occupying themselves and the other with (Y/N)'s mum doing paperwork. I waved awkwardly at her (Bro/ sis). "Have you spoken to (Y/N)?" I asked slowly, making sure I was speaking properly. They shook their head no in response. "Sorry, she went straight to her room and I was told not to bug her." They said shrugging apologetically nodded in reply leaving the room.

"Jungkook, hi." A voice spoke, leading me to look towards an open door, revealing (Y/N)'s (mum/stepmum) glancing over at me whilst putting something away. "Err Ms (Y/L/N), hello." I said awkwardly, avoiding eye contact. She gave me a knowing look that made me uncomfortable but directed me to (Y/N)'s door at the end off the hall way. Even though I knew exactly where it was anyway, I said my thanks whilst bowing my heading to her bedroom door.

When I got there I could hear (Fav/artist) playing loudly through the door. Knocking hesitantly, I got no answer from the other side; I waited before knocking again but still not getting any form of acknowledgement. Becoming impatient I call out my warning of entry and open the door whilst excusing my intrusion quietly.

To my surprise, the room was empty- when I say empty I mean no (Y/N), no clothes and everything was stripped off the walls. I walked over to her radio to see a small note attached to it. It was folded and labeled in a quick scrawl I knew so well -

To my family and friends.

I was confused by the title, as I was pretty sure I read it right but couldn't be sure, cautiously I opened the note, slightly worried. Reading it, I didn't understanding most of the sentences as it they were in English. Growing frustrated I wave the paper around as if it was going to help me understand. Whilst doing this I caught a glimpse of pen on the back.

It was hangul. Speedily, I began reading.

To those that I hold dear, I have run away. Pretty childish I know I have my reasons and hope no one blames themselves. I have done this on my own accord. Please do not come looking for me, I have everything I need. I have been going through a rough patch lately and need some time. Just forget about me, if I want or need you at any time, I know where to find you and contact you. I need some time alone. Carry on your lives happily without me. To say I have lost and ruined a lot of things would be an understatement, I know i've been a burden as of late with how down I've been as well as all the bad choices that I've made because of this. I understand if you can't forgive me for all my mistakes and leaving but I just want to say I'm sorry. - (Y/N)

After reading the note I felt a warm liquid slide down my cheek. A bitter salty taste hitting my lips. I quickly left the room heading to her (M/SM) room in a panic, needing to show someone the note to make sure it was real. Obviously startled, she looked at me questioningly but her eye softened when she saw me crying. Standing up quickly she approached giving me the perfect opportunity to give her the note. She read it quickly and let a shaky gasp leave her mouth before picking up her phone. She touched he screen a few times, then put her phone up to her ear and waited for it to ring. By the look on her face, the call didn't go as she hoped.

She dialled another number after calling for her partner desperately. Taking this as my cue to leave I bowed to Ms (Y/L/N) before soundlessly leaving the room as numbness set in leaving me feeling hollow and headed down the stairs. I left the house, feeling a deep sense of foreboding.

This is all my fault.

I thought before growling to myself in frustration. I took out my own phone looking at it blankly before pressing her contact. It didn't ring. Feeling emptier than I had ever before, I took off running with no sense of direction guiding me.

Where is she?

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I think this is quite short but oh well. Anyways- YOU RAN AWAY!
I was thinking really hard about this as it's probably poorly written. The next few chapters are really just needed to make to explain the events that will be happening later.
P.S. I forgot to say that you and Jungkook are both 17 at this moment in time.
P.S.S. Writing in bold is all English in this chapter, be it writing or speaking.