I SAID I LOVE YOU

WOH LAMHEIN WOH BAATEIN,KOI NA JAANE

TITLE TRANSLATION:Those moments, those talks ,Which no one knows

I AM SO SAD THAT I AM GETTING READS BUT HARDLY ANY VOTES,ONLY MY REGULAR REDERS ARE VOTING AND COMMENTING,PLEASE SILENT READERS VOTE R COMMENT..IF BOOK HAS ANY FALWS THEN CRITISISM IS ENCOURAGED TOO...BUT THIS LOW RESPONSE IS MAKING ME DISINTERESTED TO WRITE...I WAS SO ILL FROM 2 DAYS,BUT I AM GETTING MYSELF ENERGY TO WRITE,BUT STILL LOW RESPONSE :( !!

AND FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE VOTING AND COMMENTING,THANX A LOT GUYS,IT IS BECAUSE OF YOU I AM STILL WRITING,HOW EVER BUSY R ILL I MAY BE!!

AADI'S POV:

I woke up and looked round for a while with a startled expression, Because the bed was empty,When I came out I saw the light in the balcony,I went to find my angel was talking to nerdy about me.

I was angry and hurt that she did not choose me to express her feelings,But she is right,I will clarify her each insecurity.I slowly tip toed and patted nerdy's shoulder and asked him to go.My angel was speaking ,she was facing the sky,her back was facing me,she doesn't know I am here.

"Monu!!You know, One big mistake we all do is we give people power over us,That may be friends,lovers r anyone. And they start showing power on us by pulling the levels of our emotions, we unconsciously give them permission to play the role of someone who can hurt us. We empower them to hurt us!",she continued speaking I know she was talking about me,how she gave me power to hurt her.

"And I did not forgive aadi yet monu,You know why?To tolerate someone you still blame for hurting you and calling it forgiveness is mocking the truth, and it is self betrayal....To forgive someone is most difficult because sometimes we don't want to forgive. We want to strike back. We want justice. We want the other person to know the pain they inflicted. And if we can't have justice we vow that we will never have a relationship with that person again. We avoid them and ignore them. And I am feeling same towards aadi".

"You may think monu,why am I over reacting,can't I just forgive easily...The answer is no I cant because,If I forgive amn't I just letting aadi get away with a wrong?I am scared if I forgive I will be allowing him to take advantage of me again",I am shocked by now,Did my angel bottled up all these thoughts in her mind.I think she even started crying.

" I am hurt monu...I dont understand what I am feeling! Part of me is broken, and the other part is bitter. Part of me wants to cry, and part of me wants to fight. The tears I cry are hot because they come from my heart, and there is a fire burning in my heart. It's the fire which is caused due to anger towards aadi.......... I am unable to take a decision. Do I put the fire out or heat it up? Do I release it or save it? Do I let my hurts heal by forgiving him, or do I let hurt turn into hate and take revenge on him?" ,by now she fell on her knees and started sobbing,I want her to let everything out,I dont want to stop her.

"You know monu sometimes I feel like I will hurt aadi a lot and feel some satisfying sense of getting even,but instead of the hurt he get,The hurt I feel myself may be even greater,I am so pathetic!!",She was sobbing uncontrollably now.By now I too had tears in my eyes,My angel is hurting a lot inside,But I selfishly was trying to get her love me back.

"Thats enough angel",I said and went to kneel down before her,She was so shocked on seeing me,Why wont she,all this while she was talking thinking I was monu.

"Mo..monu",she said with hickups.

"He went away long back my angel",I wiped her tears.

"So ..you",she was hesitating.

"Yes I heard everything,and trust me I am so glad that I heard it",i peaked her forehead.

I sat down and pulled her onto my lap.She resisted but I wrapped my arms around her,She started pushing me away.