So we enter the next week. Mind you I'm still in a depressed state but no one at school knew. My alarm goes off for me to get ready fro another dumb ass day of school. I get there and by this time it's cold outside and you can basically see your breath when you talk outside. I'm talking to my friend Arnez and out of no where here comes Terrance and the bestfriend. I knew something was wrong when he didn't look me in my eyes and when he didn't come to me. Quick side note, I'm deeply in love with him at this point and I just keep ignoring the voices in my head telling me to leave him and find someone else. Like my love for him was so strong I thought my heart would explode. Anyway his bestfriend comes up to me and starts yelling. I'm thinking like what the fuck did I do. It wasn't until she actually got to the point that I realized the conversations they had. The nigh before I told him to let her know that I knew what she was going through because I've been where she is and that if she needed someone to talk to she could talk to me. Well he did. "You don't know shit about me. Keep my name out yo fucking mouth and mind you own damn business. Don't discuss shit about me with him". All I could do was stand there and stare at her. No words would come out of my mouth. The thing that surprised me the most was 1)Terrance stood there and looked me dead in my face while she was cussing me out and didn't say anything. 2)He didn't try to defend me at all and that not only piss me off that told me a lot I didn't know about his character. I couldn't do anything but ignore him and try not to cry that whole day. My heart started to crack that very day and the days after it. When I finally talked to him he apologized for it but the apology meant nothing to me. It couldn't fix the cracks that started to form in my heart. How could someone who said they loved you and wanted to spend the rest of their life with you let something like that happen to you and do nothing about it? I was confused but despite the emotional pain I was in I still managed to keep a smile on my face. Our relationship started to go downhill from there. He would always be with his "bestfriend" whenever I was looking for him. When they were together it was like I didn't matter. I felt neglected. Eventually I broke up with him. I know I seem overdramatic because it's his bestfriend but come on he let her disrespect me in front of a group of people. I asked him if he had feelings for her and he told me no with a straight face. I believed him. I had this feeling in my gut that it wasn't true so I broke up with him. Two days later I see them together. That didn't surprise me. What I saw surprised me. They were holding hands. I didn't know what to do. They were with a group of people and I was walking to class. I looked at him with a straight face and didn't say anything as our eyes met. I didn't know what to do. I felt so betrayed and I just wanted to die at that very moment. I went to class and Bianca asked m what was wrong and I couldn't even answer her. Eventually I told her and she cussed him out . When I got home that day after over doing it in practice I did what made me feel better. I cut myself and cried myself to sleep. His actions caused me pain and not once did he ask me if I was ok. He admitted to not liking her but I didn't really believe it. Eventually we got back together. I know but he made you even more depressed, he did but I loved him. I couldn't live without him. I believe in second chances. Everything was going great until we got into a bigger argument and I broke it off with him again. He got back with that bitch and once again Bianca cussed him but this time in front of me while I was crying. He grabbed me by my arm and told me he was sorry and that he loved me. I told him no and to let me go but he didn't so I yanked my arm away from him and walked away crying. He got back together with his bitch ass ugly bestfriend and it put me deeper into depression. I couldn't get over him so I made him choose. It's either me or her but he can't date her and still think I'm gonna be in his life so he chose me. We continued to date over the summer and when I changed schools. When I changed schools I didn't know I would meet someone who would change my life forever.
