Trust

Chapter 3

"May I pet your dog, I've always wanted a Vizsla, but my parents bought me these two Italian greyhound instead. The small brown one is Ruby, and the grey one is Apachie." The guy was gorgeous. Tall, dirty blonde hair, brown eyes, an incredible jawline and tattoos all over his arms. He was hot. Very, insanely hot.

"Yeah of course." I smiled. I didn't know how to react. I had hardly spoken to anyone the last few days and yet here I was, speaking to some gorgeous specimen whom I didn't even know.

"My names Elliot by the way." He smiled.

"I'm Hadley."

"Nice to meet you. I see you're not a regular here. I am always coming down with Ruby and Apachie so I literally know every friendly face, but sad to say I don't know this pretty face." He winked.

He made me nervous. He was intimidating; he looked like someone who would only speak to hot models or something. He was always very nice, didn't seem fake like what he was saying was sincere. "Yeah I live about half an hour away from here so it isn't really my destination spot anymore, but I used to come here all the time as a kid."

"Ahhhh that explains it then doesn't it. Well I need to head off. Have soccer training in an hour so maybe I'll see you round' Hadley." He smiled and shook my hand and then headed off with his two dogs. I was grinning from ear to ear the rest of the day. Dad looked like he was about to go off at me since I left without someone but in seeing my smile I think he just didn't want to spoil my apparent good mood, which is exactly what it was. After I got home I had a shower and then started writing in my diary about my day, my therapist told me it would be a good idea to let my feelings out. And today was nothing but happy thoughts. It wasn't even the fact I was somewhat attracted to Elliot, it was just his positive presence and how he was friendly enough to start a conversation with an absolute stranger. I had to admit, I wish I had his number. He seemed like a best-friend type. But I was getting ahead of myself, so I put my diary away and headed downstairs for dinner and possibly a stern talk with the parents.

"Hadley Mary-Louise-Anne, you are grounded for a week! You cannot just run off like that without someone accompanying you! You know the rules and you broke them. Your father and I are very disappointed in you!"

"Valery calm down. Its not like she did anything stupid, all she did was take HER dog on a walk. We cannot punish her for exercising herself and her pet in which we said she has to take care of! Hadley, what your mother should of said is that we are disappointed in the fact you didn't tell us. We were worried sick; we had no idea where you went or what your intentions were! We are glad you're safe and not hurt obviously but please honey, we are worried about you, and we only want what's best for you. If you want some time alone, tell us. Rather than going behind our backs and making us worried sick. There are some sick fucks out there, excuse my language dear, and you were gone for a long time so please, just tell us next time AND bring your phone! At least that way we can call you!" He came over and gave me a big hug and my mother followed. My parents cared for me, I always knew that but sometimes mom overstepped boundaries and didn't allow me to have my freedom.

"Okay mom and dad. Listen to me. I need my space! I understand that you're worried about me but please, I promise that I'll tell you if I need help but I'm getting better. Like yes it's a slow and painful process on all of us but I swear to you, I will never attempt to take my own life. I could never do that to you guys, I love you and I know you only want what's best for me but come on, I'm 19 turning 20 soon and I need my space and privacy. I want to be able to drive to the shops without someone with me, and most of all I would love to go and work out and take Andy on walks without having adult supervision. Please can we just work something out?"

I know at the end of the day they were just parents who were told there was a possibility that their only daughter could attempt suicide, which is a very serious thing and I know I have felt like it, but I could never do that to them. My dad's sister, Margret, was my best friend when I was growing up, she used to always look after me when my parents went away but then tragically when she was 23 she took her own life. My dad was so broken by it and from that day, even as a child, I knew from that day that no matter how shitty life got for me, I could never ever do that to him. I even wrote a pact in my diary when I was 12 that I would never. I still stood by that. I just wanted my parents to understand that although I felt like absolute shit on the inside, I would never break this family.

"I'm so sorry honey, I guess we never really asked how you thought about it all. We just care about you so much and you don't let us in so we don't know how you're feeling or what you're thinking. We will talk to Amanda and let her know we don't need her accompanying you anymore. We trust toy sweetie, we really and truly do. Just please talk to us if you ever need. We are always here to listen. We love you Hadley, so so much!" She then kissed on the cheek. "Okay lets have dinner now, I'm hungry!"

Mom made her special Chicken Pot Pie, which was my absolute favorite, and then after that I decided to make dessert. After we finished Dad and I were on kitchen duties, and once we finished we all went and watched The Biggest Loser. Dad had an obsession with the show, as back when he was in high school he was really unfit so he loved the stories and just the journey itself. Plus mom loved one of the trainers on the show; "sexy" she described him to be.

Once the show finished I decided to go to bed. "I'm going to take Andy on a run tomorrow morning, is that okay Dad?"

"Yeah its fine just please bring your cell phone." I smiled and gave him a hug and kiss and one to mom as well and then headed upstairs and got ready for bed.