Just Another Fuckboy | Carl Grimes Smut Fanfic

chapter five

OK so the songs i suggest are just what were playing while creating the chapters.

Wild Life- Jack & Jack

Dazed and Confused-Jake Miller

Get Ugly- Jason Derulo

Can I- Alina Baraz

I came outside to work on the fence by myself before everyone woke up. Its time i start helping the group. I mean they did save my life

I grunt as I pull the medal pole back from the walkers head. It slowly falls down fingers dropping in every whole of the fence. 

What happened to my mom? 

another walker

My dad?

another walker (another one)

My sister?

another walker dies

 a tear falls down my cheek. 

"FUCK!" i throw the pole, a medal sound rings in my ears as i slide down along the fence my hands moving my tears. the walkers watch me, knowing all they care about is eating.

my hand covers my mouth as a loud sob escapes my lips.

They stair at me trying to eat me. They used to be people too, have lives, family, they used to be alive. They used to be breathing, they used to have a heart and they used to cry. But now, there just dead corpse, no soul, no life, pale blue eyes, no warmth, nothing.

like how i feel absolutely nothing. 

stop lying to yourself you know you care.

maybe you are just nothing

That's why you want your family because you still care

if you really don't  care, then go up the the gate. walk out

DIE.

My mind debates weather i care or not. If I really don't care then i can end it.

I stand up slowly leaving the pole. with all my weight i open the gate letting one walker in almost two. I close back up the gate as the walker begins to speed up. eyeing me.

So close, I can see perfectly into those pale blue eyes.

There's going to be so much pain.

Soon the walker reaches me, knocking me to the floor as i begin to push back. 

pain once again floods my mind.

 i lay on my  back struggling to keep it up. finally i loose my strength as the walkers hands tear the stomach of my shirt, i wait for the impact of his hands going through my organs eating me alive i close my eyes waiting for the end. 

But nothing happened The struggling abruptly stops and the weight on top of me becomes a little lighter. I look up to find the walker on top of me dead. 

blood slowly falls from the whole in its head landing on my chest.

"What the fuck you could have died!" A girl runs up to me yelling at me. a silencer at the end of her gun. Her hair was brown, almost black braided on the side of her head.

"Don't you think I knew that?!" i yell back at her

"you were trying to do that on purpose"she quiets down looking at me with pity