Love Me Harder (Contract Series #2) (COMPLETED)

Chapter 12

Chapter 12

"Orders complete," the cashier said as I went on the counter to get my order.

Luckily, there's no lineup so I easily get my food. Anong oras na rin kasi at iilan na lang ang taong kumakain sa isang fastfood restaurant.

Agad akong naghanap ng pwesto na mauupuan. I decided to sit near at the window. Nakatingin lang ako sa may bintana habang inaayos ang laman ng tray ko sa table. Ewan ko ba, it's so relaxing everytime I'm seeing people passing by, vehicles moving speedily and watching simple scenery.

I didn't use my car dahil halos kahilera lang ng condo ko yung lugar na 'to. Malapit lang naman at kayang lakarin so I don't bother to use it.

It's my off that's why I'm free to do anything I want for today.

I just want to breathe.

Para kasi akong na-suffocate kapag palagi lang ako sa condo. I just want to get some fresh air. Makakita ng ibang tanawin maliban sa apat na sulok ng unit ko.

Wala naman akong ibang ginawa sa condo kung hindi matulog, manood ng movie or series. Hindi naman madalas kumain not unless nakaramdam ng gutom tsaka lang ako bababa para humanap ng makakainan.

And here I am right now, eating alone.

I ordered a simple meal, chicken with rice, french fries, cookies & cream flavored ice cream and a drink. I started to eat.

Habang kumain ay hindi ako mapakali at bawat minuto ay bumabaling ng tingin sa phone-waiting for a message.

I'm waiting for my parents to send me a simple birthday message.

Nagbabakasakali na maalala nila kung anong araw ngayon, umaasa na sana sumagi man lang sa isip nila na may anak pa sila.

I'm not expecting them to greet me anyway. I'm not expecting anything from them because I was being hurt by my own expectations.

Maybe they're too busy to even remember what is the event for today.

Baka nakalimutan lang nila, just like the old days.

Nasanay na lang din ako.

I used to celebrate my birthday alone. I don't celebrate my birthday often because no one was glad that I was born.

Ni hindi nga naalala ng sarili kong parents na birthday ko ngayon.

What's the sense of celebrating it anyway?

They used to call me independent- because I have been independent the whole time. Almost all my life I've been doing things on my own. Kakain ng mag-isa, mag-aaral ng mag-isa. If there is some important celebrations, I will considered that as a usual day because no one was there to celebrate with me. If I'm not feeling well, I need to took care of myself because no one was there to took care of me because I was alone.

Kailangan kong maging matatag, maging matapang dahil wala akong ibang aasahan. Kailangan kong tibayan, hindi dahil gusto ko 'yon kundi dahil kailangan.

I don't had a choice.

I never choose to be like this because if I had options, I won't choose to be alone.

Huminga ako ng malalim at itinaas ang ulo ng bahadya upang pigilan ang luha sa mga mata ko. I divert my attention in chewing my food. I can't enjoy my food, I'd loss my appetite already.

I feel a sudden weight on my right side, someone sit beside me. I shifted my gaze on that person and when I was about to confront that person who disturbed my peaceful moment, I paused.