control ;; phan

please

"when did you
and pj date?"
"it was on and
off for the past
two years. i told
him i'd had enough
just before you two
started seeing each
other."
"what did he do to
you?"
"you've seen the scars.
he used to hit me,
he'd throw me against
things, he'd once taken
a blade to me... he did
a lot of things."
"why did you stay
with him so long?
if he was hurting you
then surely-"
"because i loved him.
i was in love with him.
he used to be the sweetest
man alive, he used to be
so so kind, and sometimes
i could still see the pj i
fell for all that time ago."
"i know what you mean..."
"yeah, i know you know."
"but... why did you leave him
in the end? had you had
enough? was there
something-"
"it was because i loved you."
i stared at him in
disbelief.
i still couldn't
comprehend.
dan loved me?
i closed my eyes,
trying to make sense
of everything.
someone actually loved
me.
it was a real love.
not pj's possessive,
hurtful love.
this was dan's love.
and it made me feel giddy
with excitement.
i opened my eyes
for them to catch the
gaze of his own
chocolate-brown ones.
we sat in silence for a
moment until i spoke.
"can i kiss you?"
"oh god, please."