*13th Page of my Dairy*
it took almost 15 days for me to cme out of that trauma..the more i wanted to forget abt that ,the more it became prominent in memory book.. Mum asked me many times what happened with me but i didnt utter a single word abt that incident .. i started looking thin as well as pale..with big big dark circles under my eyes..as per my mum's observation..
"ajkal rono nahi ata..kahan h woh?? tum dono ne jhagra hua h kya" she asked me out of blue folding my clothes..in proper way..
i shivered... i was scared of him..i could feel that incident broke ur friendship into thousands of pieces still i had that little hope.. dat one day he would come up with my favourite chocolates..assembling me in his lap..chirp some sorries..with his delicate baby pecks n everything would bcme fine agn..but he didnt show up... one month buried its death..i did miss him.. i missed him alot..whatever happened between us.. well it was not lyk our regular fights,i should b angry on him..n i was angry but at the corner of heart i wanted everything to be fine agn... i giggled rewinding some old jokes of him..
everytime i missed him i used to hold that locket silenting praying "he will come tomorrow..dekhna kal hi ayega.. i knw he cant live without me.." but dat tomorrow never came until dat day..
"sanyu uth..uth sanyu..dkh niche rono aya h.." my mom slapped my bum n i bounced up on bed "rono aya h.. dkha kaha tha na ayega" i hugged mum..she upped her eyebrows wondering at my sudden overflow of happiness. i jumped out of my bed n was abt ran out when my subconscious warned me 'remember u r angry on him..he need to come up'
"mujhe nahi milna usse"i took my steps back.. Mum looked at me.. "kyu..?? go meet him before..."
"before??" i stared at her..but my heart was sulking with every passing moment..
"rono ko london university me scholarship mila h.. he is leaving today" mum said folding the bedsheet.. bt i freezed there.. 'no i need to stop him..he cant go lyk dat' i gasped inaudibly..n ran out.. i found him ruffling Romeo's golden brown hairs n kissed him smilling at my dad.
i went downstairs almost skipping 2-3 stairs when he took blessings from my dad n turned to leave..
he didnt look at me.. "rono.." i whispered..n he paused at the doorstep..as if he heard it.. he looked sideways towards my dad "bye..apna khayal rakhna" he stopped to smile as he was indicating me..den added "uncle" n he disappeared from there..
i ran back to the balcony..the society road was clearly visible from there.. i always waved him from there before he leave..
i saw him settling himself on his bike.. i advanced my hand to stop him"rono please mat ja" i knew my voice inaudible from there when he paused before wearing the helmet n caressed the mirrior for a moment but den put on his helmet n whooshed away..he didnt looked up for once..he didnt look at me jst went away... i felt lyk somebody just snatched away my breath...
i came out all shattered..he broke all of my air castles together..now those broken pieces were piercing my soul..
i found Romeo loitering around me shaking his tail.. i picked him up.. n locked both of us in my room.. At that point of time i needed someone badly with whom i could share my pains..who will listen to me quitely...n for dat no one was better than romeo.. i hugged my young golden retriever puppy tight.. he looked at my tear drenched face.. "tujhe v usne pyar kiya na aaj..but mujhe nahi kia...dekh chala gaya chorke..sab khatam hogaya.." i sniffed holding him..n lyk some innocent true friend he tried to sooth me by rubbing his face with me...
To be continued...
