*24th page of my dairy*
"Bcz I love u dammit!" Before i could pass out in shock he jerked me up "yahi sunna chahti thi na..hmm...?yess i m stupid that i still love u..M stupid that i still care about u...bt u...Tune kabhi mujhe samajh ne ki kosis ki...bol..kabhi ki kosish! See u dnt any answer!! I was never ur piority...Kabhi tere frnds..kabhi rehan..n now woh dhruv.." he smiled sadly "and yesterday if i hadn't come to get u....u'd probably be waking up....warming his bed.."
And that was it! My hands jerked him off with all strength i had,and the next moment i slapped him hard across his left cheek.
I felt like every inch of my body was burning... burning with rage.. my palm was hurting from the slap and i could only assume how hard it was that he took a step back, rubbing his cheek. Bt i was wrong to think that he was in shock.
I saw his facial muscle tighten in fury and the next thing i knew he pounched over me like a hungry lion hurling his towel away which was around his neck n slammed his lips over my quivering one hard.....too hard that i lost my balance n fell back on bed with him hovering over my body.
i gasped. He was kissing me violently. Briefly our teeth clashed. I struggled under him but he held my wrists n pinned them on either side of my head. I could feel his frustation..his desperation...his aggression in the kiss... soon i felt droplets on my right eyelid n his violent moves becme gentle all of a sudden. Shit!! He was crying. I blinked my eyes only to find him tenderly nibbling my lips with wet closed eyes. All my emotions overpowered my senses and I kissed him back..putting all my heartbreaks..anger in that one kiss.
He was not just kissing..he was devouring my lips,tasting every corner of my mouth as the moment his tongue tangled with mine i could not stop myself responding with same passion. Lack of oxygen in my system made me wiggle and he broke the kiss. I noticed his face,it hd bcme red. A lone tear rolled out of his eyes to his nose peak n fell on my cheek. But i was angry on him. I need to make things clear. I cant get weak now. I looked away before i change my mind,dump all my anger n hug him tight.
"M sorry" he left my hand n caressed my already swollen lips with his thumb. I didnt look at his direction "Aur nahi reh sakta me tere bina. Bohat kosis ki tujhse dur rehne ki...pr nhi hua..." he huffed trying to tame his heavy breath. "Mujhe nahi ata rehan dhruv jaisi achi achi baate krna..i cant be like them but i promise i wll try to be like them...I promise me tujhse kavi jhagra nahi krunga...tujhe jaisa pasand waisa ban jayunga...but Please dnt leave me." His voice cracked saying the last line. I knw that he was weak emotionally bt i never imagined him like this. Its true i never tried to understand him. That feeling made me weep. I never understood his feeling...never tried to console him.
"Sanyu..hey what happened..i m..m sorry.." he panicked
"I love u stupid" i clasped him in my arms.. he was silent but i weeped there on his shoulder.
"Saach?" i felt him grinning lyk that little kid who gt his favourite candy frm his mom.
"I love u.. rono..the way u are... bachpan se i love u bt tu gussa hoke chala gaya..fir ek bar v mujhse baat nhi ki. Usdin v tune mujhse baat nhi ki." I wiped my nose with the back of my hand "moorke v nhi dkha... u know what u r? U r a idiot jerk...& i hate u." i pushed him lightly.
"Bt i toh love u"
"Huh"
He grinned more looking at my running nose "marry me rotlu"
God!! Only he can have such sense of timing. He just proposed me like this...that too with a "rotlu" tag.
He kissed my nose breaking my chain of thoughts
"Me rotlu nahi hu..." i pouted n he took the chance to kiss me agn taking both of my lips.
"Marry me" he said once he left my lips n trailed a chain of wet kisses along my jawline. I pressed my lips together to supress my moans but it came out as he suck a portion of my neck. His addictive musky scent was driving me crazy.
"Yess" which barely came out as whisper..which turned on the animal in him.
To be continued...
