My Dead Friend

Six

Once I got outside, I whipped my tears off with my jacket. I just didn't believe who I saw. I shook my head in fear. "No it won't happen not today." I said whispering to myself. I walked to school trying to forget about it, but I just couldn't. I had an urge to run back home and kill myself. I didn't want Dan to see myself cry. I didn't want him to see me at all, because of what I did yesterday. I sighed as I stopped at the lights. Everyone was walking by me as I walked slowly. Thinking about Dan and my nightmare. "What if its going to happen. If so, when? Now. Later." I thought. I just kept shaking my head hoping the thoughts would run out of my head. The images of Dan's death scared me. His blood on the cold road. His skin suddenly turn pale from the loss of his self. Not hearing his voice again. Watching myself cry in the middle of a situation. I act like I was a innocent child, smiling about guilt. Then it flashed. I didn't see anymore. I arrived at school when I saw him. Dan looked at me emotionless. I could guess it was from what I did yesterday. I smiled at him but I faked it. Dan just looked away after that.

He walked to his locker and quickly to his class room. While I kept thinking of him being dead. "Why was my nightmare still going on?" I thought. I kept walking through the endless halls of people. They looked at each other and shouted. Their lockers slamming in and opening. The chatter of gossip and jokes. While I stood there at my locker feeling like time is going slow. I took out my books and knife. I grabbed crumpled of paper and start to write on it.

"Dear Dan,
I am sorry about kissing you yesterday. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I needed to tell someone but your my only friend. And I know your mad at me. I accept if you will still be after this, but You won't. No matter if you want to be friends or not.
From, Phil

I quickly folded the note and put it next to my knife in my pocket. I looked around to make sure there was no one to see me. I quickly shut my locker and ran to my class.

Once I got to the door. I opened it while everyone talked. I sat by Dan as usual. Dan looked at me for a second and then the board. He tried to ignore me as I looked at him. I put my hand in my pocket holding the note. Students began to murmur at each other. I pulled out the note and gave it to Dan. Dan suspicious looked at me with anger and then quickly grabbed it. I looked at him smiling and then looked at my book. Dan looked at me every few sentences he read. A boy behind Dan leaned behind him. He starred at the note I read. He grinned and then looked at me. Dan folded up the note and stuck it in his pocket. Just as Dan was going to talk to me the boy shouted. I sprung up in fear, as I could tell what he was going to shout. Dan turned his head in confusion, like always not knowing what's going on. "I KNEW IT!" He shouted laughing. Everyone turned their heads at us. Everyone starred in confusion. "Dan likes Phil!" He shouted over and over. Girls laughed and covered their mouths in surprise. Boys pointed at me and Dan laughing. Dan stood up in front of him and shouted. "No I don't! Phil does! He's the one who fucking kissed me! Not me!" I covered my face in fear. But for a second I felt Dan was hiding it. Even yesterday he seemed to cover his feelings. Then I stood up from the laughter of students. "Fine Dan. I tried too but I guess you won't accept." I said clutching my fist. As I was going out the classroom door, the teacher stood there. I pushed him aside and walked out the door. Everyone watched till the teacher came. Dan looked at the teacher in fright and soon ran out to catch up with me. The teacher watched Dan run out the room. Everyone's mouth shut quickly as the teacher began to question what was going on. They took out their books and forgot the whole situation, but Dan didn't forget anything. He just kept trying to catch up to me. I wondered what was Dan thinking. After all i did and said. He probably confused as me.

I heard the pounding of his feet run up to me, but I was far ahead from him. I opened the door and walked to my house. As I walked I felt like something was going to happened. Sometime soon but I couldn't think. The air was thick and foggy. It was cold and moist. I still could hear Dan trying to catch up. Till it happened I was there.