My Dead Friend

Seven

I stepped onto the road as I saw lights coming at me. My eyes widen in fear as I saw it coming at me. I stood there trying to see what was happening. Dan stopped at the light and watch the bus come at me. "Phil!" He shouted as he ran up pushing me, but I didn't let him. So I pushed him back onto the pavement. I accepted what was going to happen. Those nightmares that happened. They were real. they were telling me what was going to happen. I sighed and looked at Dan and smiled. "Sorry Dan." I said as a tear fell. Dan shook his head in fear. I knew he wanted himself to be dead. But it just had to happen. I looked at him smiling as the bus came running at me. "Phil. Don't do it." He said as the bus was a feet away. I shook my head. Then I felt it. The bus hit my head and my chest. Blood ran through my body, spreading out to my skin trying to find an exit. Soon, Blood ran out my mouth and onto the road. I fell feeling pain on the road. Tears of blood appeared every time I talked. I heard Dan's foot steps run up to me. Everything was all blurry even Dan's face. "Phil?" Dan shouted holding my head. I squinted trying to see his face. But I couldn't. My skin turned to a pale red. Dan cried onto my jacket like I did in my dream. He wanted it to be a dream. I felt his tears fall into my cuts and soaked up blood from my jacket. For the first time Dan hugged me. I could only hear voices and they were murmuring. "Phil? Can you hear me?" Dan said hugging my dead body. I tried to nod but I was in too much pain. Blood kept dripping from my head to his hand. My lungs felt like they were going to collapse. I took a deep breath and spoke quietly. "Dan." I said opening my eyes deadly. Dan smiled at me as I saw his tears fall. "Yea Phil?" He asked whipping his tears. I took a gasp as I coughed blood. "I love you. Dan." I said as my lungs soon fell out of air. My heart slowly stopped. The beat went out of rhythm. Dan cried and tugged onto my hoodie. He closed his eyes and smiled. "I. I love you to Phil. Don't you forget. You hear me." He said crying. But there was no word coming from my dead body. Dan felt my heart beat dropped dramatically. Dan shook his head in fear. He lost a friend, he lost his love. He lost me. I just couldn't bare it. I sighed as I watch myself die in the cold moist air. Dan crying. I felt horrible. But I had to face the facts. Dan stood up from my corpse and starred at me. Tears dropped every second. "Why Phil." He said still shaking his head. "Why didn't you let me die." He said getting louder. I stood behind him as I watched. Blood stained his hands, shirt and jeans. Dan circled back and forth in fear.  He had my death on his hand. People would think he killed me. Dan sighed and picked me up from the bloody ground. He starred at me, as i was pale as ever.

He walked over to hospital regret if everything. All the way he felt guilt in him. Dan tried not to look at my face. but he couldn't help himself. So I followed him. Soon, we got closer to the hospital. Blood dropped from my body to the ground. The scent travel from the death pool that once wasn't, to the hospital. Dan opened the door and starred at the nurse. His eyes were full of freight and disbelief of what have happened. The nurse stopped and starred at him. Everything paused for a minute. No words, no movement. Just me and Dan. They called doctors and nurses. Soon they grabbed my body and transferred me to a room. Leaving Dan behind waiting.

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Dan's pov

I ran out the school door chasing Phil. I didn't mean to yell it out Or what happen yesterday. But I needed to tell him. It was foggy and moist. Then I saw car lights. My feet paused for a second and stared, looking at Phil. He starred at me crying. His eyes were full of fear but knowing the truth of reality. The bus came closer to him every minute. Nervously, I shout his name so he would move but he didn't. So, I ran up and pushed him aside but Phil pushed me back into the pavement. Phil smiled at me as tears fell. I knew he was going to kill himself. "Why would he do that." I thought. That's not Phil. As the bus came I looked away from Phil's dead body. I didn't want to hear the crunching of bones. I didn't want to hear crying of pain. Instead it was silence. Just the driving of the bus. I saw the dreadful pain that was once full of joy and happiness, turned to nothingness, pain, and regret. Slowly,  my feet shuffled walking over to Phil, my knees weakened to the ground. Everything for a moment wasn't what I wanted. It was just cold, death, silence, most of all fear. My friend, my love, was dead. His skin was pake red like the beginning of a apple growing. His warm and cold Blood was soaking up my shirt. My pants weren't black anymore, but stained by my friends love. I shook my head in disbelief. I wanted the crisis to end. I want it to be a dream. Why can't I wake up and see Phil alive again. But I soon realize it wasn't. Tears began to fall from my eyes. I hugged Phil hoping he's still alive. Then he gasped for air. I starred at him worriedly. "Dan." He said deadly. I nodded smiling. "Yea Phil?" I said wishing he would stay alive, but I was wrong. Phil looked at me smiling with three last words. "I love you." He said as his eyes began to close. I shook my head. "Phil." I said hugging him. "I. I love you to Phil. Don't you forget. You hear me." I said as tears ran down. But there was no sound. I didn't want him to die. So I sat there watching him. Waiting till he woke but I realized he wouldn't. So I took him to the hospital.This wasn't the first time this happened to me. I came home from school and saw my mothers body on the floor. At first i didn't understand but i soon realized. She was dead. the blood from the shattered bottle. The angry smile from my father. The bottles were everywhere. My mothers mouth was infested with dripping blood. My father just sat there on a chair. Forgetting about the image he created. Then He cried. He was drunk. I knew it all. But i didn't confess in the court. That's why i moved. but i didn't tell Phil. He wouldn't understand at all. He never seen death in his life. At least i don't think. Except his dream. The dream that happened. I sat there in a chair waiting and waited. I felt that Phil's ghost was watching me from a distance. Those words I said in class was stupid. The things I said and did around Phil was stupid. "Why did I let him die." I said to myself. The things I said. I should of told him the truth, but I didn't. I just faked it. Then the nurse came. I stood up smiling from the inside as I walked over to Phil's room. I saw his smile again.

Phil's pov
I awoke to see the blank wall. Nothing but blurriness. I heard the door shut. Dan looked at me smiling. I smiled a little ,but i just wanted to be dead. I didn't want to feel pain again. I didn't want Dan to see my bruises and cuts. I was in horrible shape. Dan held my hand and starred at it. His smile brought warmth in my heart. At least I'll see him one more time. "So, I guess you are alive." He said starring at my hand. There was a pause in between us. Till I spoke. "Yeah. I am." I say starring at the wall. Dan's smile went away. He looked at me depressed with guilt. "I'm sorry." He said trying to smile. There was a pause again. Sighs broke out as I waited for Dan to talk. I could tell Dan was going to tell me something. Then he spoke. He told me. Instead I paused him. "Phil. I-" Dan said. I paused his sentence as I spoke. "I know Dan. I saw the whole thing." I say looking at Dan instead of the ceiling. Dan stood in confusion. "What. What do you mean by "saw"?! Dan said strangely. I sighed and smiled. "When I got ran over, I saw everything. You were hugging me and talking. You said. You. You loved me. That's all i want to hear. But you took me back to the hospital. And now I'm alive." I said faking my happy voice. Dan smiled from the inside out. "Oh. Well I guess you know?" Dan said holding my hand tight. I thought for a moment. Then a second. "Why wouldn't you let me die." I thought. But instead I spoke not realizing. Dan looked from the floor then at me. "What Phil?" He asked. I stuttered for second then not at all. "What? I. I didn't say anything!" I said shouting. Dan looked at my confused. "Phil. It's what happened isn't it." Dan spoke. I shook my head. But Dan knew enough about me that I lied. "Phil. Tell me." Dan said worried. I looked around to see if Dan had my jacket. I was going to do it. I was going to kill myself. So Dan wouldn't suffer anymore. He wouldn't have to face the people who judge us. He won't be the one who's dying in pain anymore. I smiled at Dan and asked "Dan. Do you have my clothes?" Dan looked up at me for a moment then took out a bag. "Here." He said handing it over. "Thanks Dan. I'll be right back." I said grabbing the bag quickly. I ran to the bathroom and changed into my clothes. I checked my pocket to see if I had my knife. But it was gone. I freaked out and panicked. "No. No. No I need my knife!" I said whispering loudly. Dan walked over to the bathroom and knocked. "Everything alright Phil?" He asked. I nervously bit my nails in panic. I shiver and stutter. "Uh. Yeah! I'm. Im fine!" I shout nervously. "Ok then." Dan said about to walk away. I was in panic. I need my knife. I need to end my life. I can't go anywhere without it. Then I opened the door and tugged onto Dan's shirt. "Where's my knife." I said starring straight into his eyes. Dan's eyes widen in fear. "Phil. Since when did you have a knife?!" He shouted. Then I realized. I said it. He knew. "Uh. I. Um. Nothing!" I shouted backing away. What's happening to me. I used to be like Dan. Careless, and normal. But now I'm becoming insane. Ever since I met Dan and that dream. That knife that's been in my pocket Has taken over my mind. Dan tried to hold my hand but I didn't let him. I sighed and closed my eyes. "Dan. Just give me the knife." I said smiling and open my eyes, clutching my hands. "Phil. I'm-" Dan said but I paused him. "Trust me Dan." I said smiling. "You already killed yourself. Why would you want to do it again?!" Dan asked blocking the door. I starred at him with anger. "Maybe I'm tired of it. Maybe I don't want you to suffer. Just maybe. I want to die." I say. That word. Die. I never said that out loud. Dan shook his head and walked up to me. He hugged me. I wanted the hug to end so bad. The only reason he's doing this is because he loves me. Then I thought. "What if Dan has a knife. Or even better pocket knife." I slowly put my hand in Dan's back pocket and grabbed what appeared to be a pocket knife. I quickly grabbed it and back way from Dan. "Ha! I knew it!!" I yelled. Dan spoke with anger. "Phil! Give it back. Before you do it." He shouted. I shook my head with excitement. "Oh. No. I will never. Not till I do it." I said smiling. Dan shook his head and ran out to get help. I starred at the knife with happiness. I was going to do it. Finally. No suffer, no problems, no anything! Just me and Dan! "Wait. I said pausing. "It would just be me." I said in fear. Ever since I kissed him. I thought we could be together. Dan came back with nurses and doctors. They surrounded me in fear. They didn't want me dead. "Phil. Put down the knife." Dan said walking closer to me. I starred at the knife in fear and love. "Should I die. Or live." I thought. I know it's wrong if I do kill myself. But I don't want to suffer anymore. I just want this nightmare to end.

Dan was head to head with me. He smiled and slowly grabbed my knife. I dropped to my knees crying. "Just let it end. I don't want this nightmare anymore. I want to wake up. I want to see Dan again. I want to smile. I want to be normal. Please make it stop!" I shout. Dan looked at me and smiled. He went on his knees hugging me. The nurses and doctors ran out the room and onto their jobs. "Phil. It will be over. Now that your with me." Dan said whipping my tears off my face. I put my head onto Dan's shoulder and smiled. Dan kissed me. "I love you Phil. Even if you did kill yourself. I would remember you." Dan said still hugging me.

That day forward I wasn't scared anymore. The nightmares were gone. It was just Dan and I.