Day 1: How long have you been self-harming? Discuss why you started.
I started because I needed to feel alive again. There have been 3 phases where I self-harmed quite a lot:
1) March-May 2012
2) September-December 2012
3) March-May 2013
They all got progressively worst. The first time I started was because I felt alone. I was addicted to the internet because I was losing my "irl" (in real life) friends. But "internet friends" didn't help much. There were a few that did, but the majority didn't.
The second time was because my parents banned me from the internet. Now I had now "irl" friends or "internet" friends. But I was pushed into the real world and it allowed me to gain friends. But it still hurt and I still felt alone.
However, as a New Year's Resolution, I promised myself I wouldn't do it again. You can see how well that worked out...
For the third time, it was because I was lost, helpless and alone. Friends helped, yes, but I was beginning to see more and more of the real world and how much heartbreak and loss there was every day. My Grandad also passed away on the 29th January, which didn't help things.
