New Girl ♡ 5sos

3%

Destiny's Pov:

School was as boring as ever. Calum was following me like a lost puppy most of the day. I just hope he doesn't think we are friends. Because I really don't need anyone. I have me, myself, and I. That's all I will ever need in life. As I sit in the lonely house waiting for Michael and Laisha to come home I just write in my diary.

To Whoever finds this,

It's getting worse. I know I promised Mikey I wouldn't be all depressing and stuff but you know it's fucking hard. It's really hard. It's hard to wake up everyday and pretend you are fine. When you are not really fine. It's hard to look in a mirror and say  'Oh wow I look good today' cause I never feel that. When I look in the mirror I just stare at how dull my eyes are or  how many pimples I have. I always have these thoughts that I just wished would go away. I think Lai and Mikey are home. I got to go.
-Des xx

I close my diary and I hide it under my bed. I hear Michael and Laisha in the living room yelling at each other. They have been doing that alot.

"YOU CAN'T JUST GO AROUND AND BE MEAN TO PEOPLE FOR NO REASON!"

"WELL YOU SHOULDNT PUSH ME AWAY SO MUCH!"

"MAYBE YOU SHOULD JUST STOP BEING SUCH A BITCH"

No Michaelll. You just ruined it. I can now hear her crying and Michael apologizing. I roll my eyes and grab my music notebook where I write all of my songs I keep hidden. So I start writing and when I get finished I start crying.

¤ They would yell, they would scream, they were fighting it out
She would hope, she would pray, she was waiting it out
Holding onto a dream
While she watches these walls fall down
Sharp words like knives, they were cutting her down
Shattered glass like the past, it's a memory now
Holding onto a dream
While she watches these walls fall down

Hey mum, hey dad
When did this end?
Where did you lose your happiness?
I'm here alone inside of this broken home
Who's right, who's wrong
Who really cares?
The fault, the blame, the pain's still there
I'm here alone inside of this broken home, this broken home

Wrote it down on the walls, she was screaming it out
Made it clear, she's still here, are you listening now?
Just a ghost in the halls
Feeling empty, they're vacant now
All the battles, all the wars, all the times that you've fought
She's a scar, she's the bruising, she's the pain that you brought
There was life, there was love
Like a light and it's fading out

Hey mum, hey dad
When did this end?
Where did you lose your happiness?
I'm here alone inside of this broken home
Who's right, who's wrong
Who really cares?
The fault, the blame, the pain's still there
I'm here alone inside of this broken home, this broken home

You've gotta let it go, you're losing all your hope
Nothing left to hold, locked out in the cold
Your painted memories that washed out all the scenes
I'm stuck in between a nightmare and lost dreams

Hey mum, hey dad
When did this end?
Where did you lose your happiness?
I'm here alone inside of this broken home
Hey mum, hey dad
When did this end?
Where did you lose your happiness?
I'm here alone inside of this broken home
Who's right, who's wrong
Who really cares?
The fault, the blame, the pain's still there
I'm here alone inside of this broken home
This broken home ¤

I start full on crying because I didn't know I had it in me. I have never wrote anything sad. I always write things happy. But tonight I just couldn't take it. My phone lights up saying someone texted me.

From: Unknown Number

Heyyy u.

*

To: Unknown Number

Um hi? Who is this. Btw it's You**

*

From: Luke (From math)

It's Luke from math. Your brother gave me your number. And haha sorry.

I just decided not to talk to him. I don't need people. I am not a people person. I put my phone down and I just go to sleep. I much rather be asleep then to listen to them fight.

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Sorry for any spelling errors :)