New Girl ♡ 5sos

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Just before this chapter begins I want to warn you. I don't advise ANY of you to cut yourself. If you do I love you and stay strong please.
TRIGGERING WARNING. Read at your own risk. Ily xx

Destiny's Pov:

I can't believe it. "Oh my word you have grown up so much baby girl" my mom says. I just roll my eyes. I take my phone out and I text Laisha.

To: Mama Lai

Help. My 'mother' was released from jail. Michael is on his way and when he sees her he will flip.

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I didn't get a text back she just read my message. Okay? I wonder what's wrong. I text her a few times trying to see what's wrong but I just get this message.

From: Mama Lai

Destiny leave me alone. I get it you have no friends so you cling on to Michael and i. Well I am tired of you being do depressing all the time and I just can not handle it. Make friends of your own.

Wow. I knew it everyone leaves in the end. I get another message from her.

From: Mama Lai

Omg Destiny I didn't mean it like that I am so sorry. I love you so much.

I don't even bother answering. I don't feel like getting yelled at. I pick my backpack up and I walk out the front office and out of the school. Before I had left I saw Michael walking down the hallway. I start walking towards my house. Once I get there I unlock the front door and I walk in. I go up to my room and I lock my door. I throw my backpack in some random corner. My phone kept vibrating meaning I was getting messages but I chose not to read them. I grabbed my diary and I start writing

To whoever finds this,

I am broken. And I can't be fixed. Laisha finally told me how she really felt about me. My mom was released from jail and she thinks she can just pop back into my life like nothing happened? I am really angry. I don't know what to do. I might give in. After 2 months of not cutting I think I'm gonna do it.
I am so sorry.

-Des xx

I go into my bathroom that connects to my bedroom. I go in and I grab my brand new razor. I pop the actual Razer part off. And I got a couple of cuts on my finger but that's okay. I start dragging the blade across my skin. I forgot how good this felt. The blood just dripping from my skin. Then the pain kicks in. It is just a little reminder that I am not worth it. I am not worth anything. Why I don't just end everything? I am just waiting a while to see if life has other plans. It did at first and now everything is just crashing down. I was about to cut some more when the front door is being opened. "Oh shit" I say as more blood goes down my arm.

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Sorry for any spelling errors :)

Like I said I love everyone and I do not want to see anyone get hurt. I love you stay strong ♡