Abducted.

don't go

                    HARRY'S POV
It was breaking me seeing her like this. Her tears streaming down her face. What was I thinking? Putting her in this situation. This wasn't her life. I knew I'd get hell from my sister but she was more important. I knew we could make that up in a couple of days and yet... no. She wasn't used to this life like I was. I'm used to facing death head on. I learned how to deal with pain through my father's beatings. Yet there was a part of me that wanted out but I Knew I couldn't. The minute I did I'd get arrested. Jailed for a lifetime or the death penalty. I was stuck in this life and nothing or no one could help me. I was bringing Marie in my life. She didn't deserve this. I pulled away from Marie and started the car. I drove down the highway. Looking straight ahead and feeling Marie's eyes but I refused to look at her. The trees seemed endless and I wondered how long it took before I made it to the base. I let my mind wonder not focusing on the road fighting the pain I was so used too. I couldn't leave the group. I owed my sister everything. She went through hell to make sure this group thrived and it did. We were one of the strongest groups in Cambridge. We got money and power along with the constant threat of death over our heads. We ruined people's lives to make our own. Got people addicted to our drugs. Making them pay high prices so that the only way they could live is in some crummy apartment and sooner than later on the streets. We got CEOs to bankrupt their companies to continue getting high from the drugs we gave. Millions of dollars went into this group. And millions of hard working dollars were lost. This was a despicable living. A living that preyed off the innocent. I glanced at Marie all her tears gone a curious look on her face in a couple of minutes she'd ask me what's wrong and I'll say nothing. I couldn't being her in The gangs issues. She'd never really understand and it's not like I can talk to a therapist. They say they don't judge but that's all bull poop. The gang members would think I was weak so I'm resorted to keeping them all bottled up. The trees started to recede and I heard her voice.
"I'm sorry."
She's saying sorry for risking her life for a worthless cause? If it was another membber they  would've picked the drugs and sold her off. Members were dispensable. There were so easy to replace it was almost funny.
"I shouldn't have put you out there." My voice came out harsher than I intended and she looked out the window.
"Marie please forgive me."
" Yeah."
"What if I just let you go?"
She looked at me and for once I saw hesitation. She didn't want to leave...me?
"Why?"
"This isn't your life."
"Okay." I heard the sadness in her voice and I wanted to hold her make her happy but I couldn't.
A part of me seemed to tear just a little and I kept my eyes on the road. Blinking fast. To avoid tears. I could never give her the life she deserved.
"Harry?"
I didn't reply. I couldn't. I kept my eyes on the road. Acting like I didn't hear her.
She looked away and I felt so grateful to see the driveway to the base. I pulled up and and unlocked the doors.
I went to the door expecting Marie to walk away. She was leaving. I told her she could.
I opened the door and heard small footsteps. I looked around. I saw Marie right behind me looking feebly at her feet.
"I said you could go."
" I have to get my stuff."
What stuff? I couldn't help but hide the smile growing on my face. She didn't have shit in this house but I nodded and let her in closing the door behind me.
"Harry."
"Yeah."
Her small 5'3 frame looking so venerable.
" Don't let me go."
I looked at her. She was sad. Insecure but this wasn't her life. It never will be. I couldn't ruin her potential.
" I said you could go."
She looked at me. The sadness in her eyes breaking me but I had to let her go.
              Marie's POV
I looked at him. His green eyes werr hurt but certain. I didn't want to leave. I loved Harry and I hated myself for it but you can't control who you fall inlove with. You can't control your heart. It's hilarious how this had to work. He had to kidnap me. I had to be held at knife point to realize I was always in love with this man. When I was crying and he was holding me that's all I was craving. The way my heart seemed to ease to his touch. The way I knew I didn't want to leave this house. I didn't want to leave him.
I didn't  want him to let me go. I wouldn't let him leave me. I'd kidnap him if I had too.
"No. Harry."
"Marie this isn't your life."
"It is now."
The defiance wouldn't leave my body.
"Marie I hate you. I never loved you. Your fucking pathetic to think I ever did."
He was lying. He had to be. I looked at him and it scared me to see no emotion in them. He loved me. I knew he did. He wouldn't go through all this trouble for nothing.
"Harry your ly...."
"If you can't even deliver drugs correctly you'll be nothing but the groups sex toy and no offense but your boobs are to small for that occupation plus we have way to many sex slaves anyway." He said that with a smirk on his face. Smugness written all over his face.
I lost my virginity to this guy. He couldn't... no he loved me. He had to. Marie stop being an idiot. He was using you. He never loved me. He just used me. Did he ever love me? My heart seemed to be tearing in 2. He... I was so pathetic. I could never do anything right.  Nothing.
I felt the hot tears fall from my eyes and I couldn't believe it. I looked at him. A smile on his face. He was a heartless monster. I hated him.
"FUCK YOU. I WISHED I NEVER SAT AT THAT TABLE WITH YOU. I WISHED I NEVER FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU. I WISH I NEVER MET YOU."
I ran out of the house blindly. Not caring that there was a car racing towards me.
And thanks to everyone who's still reading I'll try update more regularly. Thanks. Marie