Bullshit

Chapter 1

Harrys POV:

"Thats what makes you beautiful!" we all finished.

The loud high pitch screaming and squealing of all of our fans filled my ears and gave me a sense of pride. Not many people get to do what I do, and I'm actually really proud of myself for making it this far.

"Thank you guys! You have been a lovely audience!" Liam shouted before the light on the stage went off and we were escorted off of the stage by security.

"Great gig guys!" Niall cheered, punching Zayn in the shoulder playfully.

"Yeah, I'd say its one of our best ones this tour." I joined in.

"Totally, not a single note missed." Liam smiled at us. "Don't you think Louis?" He asked.

We all turned our attention to Louis who looked up from his phone. 

"Oh yah, real good lads." He said before he turned back to his phone.

I slowed down my pace slightly walk behind Louis and take a peek over his shoulder. Yup I knew it, he was texting Eleanor, figures.

I let out a deep sigh and walked up beside Niall who was currently talking with Zayn about maybe getting a tattoo.

"And I don't know, I just don't want it to hurt." he cringed, as if he was thinking of the pain.

"Niall trust me, its barely a pinch." Zayn told his reassuringly.

I tapped Niall on the shoulder and he turned to me, giving me a sfot smile.

"I was thinking that we could all go and get something to eat." I suggested.

All of the boys but Louis nodded, he was to wrapped up in his texting. I wonder what they were talking about? 

"Sounds like a great idea mate." Liam praised me.

"Could we just get drive through food? I just wanna go to sleep." Zayn asked.

"Sure, any food is fine by me as long as it tastes godd." Niall chuckled.

"Um actually guys, I think I'm gonna have to bail." Louis spoke up.

"Why? Its just drive through." I questioned.

Louis gave us a soft smile, and like any other time he smiled it made my heart skip a beat practically forcing me to smile back. I mean how could I not smile when he does, he has the most beautiful smile ever.

"Well I'm going on a date with Eleanor, she just so happens to have a fasion shoot in a city 2 hours from here." He told us, the usual dreamy expression pn his face whenever he talked to or about Eleanor. 

I wish I was the one that caused him to have that expression. But I'm a boy, and Louis doesn't like boys. He likes pretty slu- I mean girls.

"Oh, cool." I muttered.

"Yeah, and um me and El are going to a hotel after, I should be back by the time we hit the road agin." He informed us.

"Okay Lou, we'll see you tomorrow at ten." Liam smiled.

"By lads! Oh and Harry?" 

My head snapped up from looking at the ground. Was he maybe giving me a special goodbye? Or a hug before he left? Just like he used to!? My heart filled with hope and a small, real, smile went on my face as I looked at him hopefully.

"Yeah?" I asked.

"Could you maybe just put my luggage onto the bus, I don't want to bring it with me. Its not like me and El will be needing cloths anyway." He joked.

I knew it, he never does anything special with me any more. No more special hugs, no more whispers on stage, no more kises on the cheek. No more anything, he doesn't even call me Hazza or Haz anymore. 

"S-sure thing Loubear." I said weakly.

Louis let out a loud groan and glared at me slightly.

"Harry, I rold you no more of those nicknames. Eleanor calls me those whenever we cuddle and its just weird when you do it." He complained.

"Sorry." I whispered.

"It's fine, just don't do it again." He told me, lowly so only I could hear. "Well I'm off on my date! Bye!" He bid farewell before rushing over to one of the gaurds.

I let out a deep sigh and looked down at my shoes biting my lip to keep me from crying. How could I go from being so happy one second and then holding back tears the next. Its all Louis fault! Ever since that stupid tweet I knew that there was no chance he could love me or even like me the way I loved him. Before I thought that maybe I had a chance, I even almost told him. I was in my room on my laptop scrolling through twitter, getting ready to go across the hallway and gush out my feeling to Louis. 

But of course he just had to reply to the tweet. It was probably for the best anyway, if I would have told Louis my feelings then our friendship would have been ruined. Well... it probably already is ruined. We don't do anything that we used to, and whenever I try to do something like that Louis always tells me to stop it.

"What do you want to order Harry?" Niall asked. 

I looked around and I didn't even realise that I had gotten in the van, or that we were already at some Mcdonalds ordering our food.

"Actually I'm not that hungry." I muttered.

"Come on Harry, you got to eat something." Liam urged.

"Fine, I'll have a salad, woth no drssing and a water." I told them.

That sounds liek something Eleanor would order right? I mean not that I care... but if Louis loves herso much then I'll just have to act more like her. Then maybe Louis would finally notive me. I know that its a stupid plan but I've run out of things to do!

Liam gave me a concered look. "Are you sure? Hary if your worried about eating healthy your fine. You were on the treadmill for an hour this morning. Plus all the running onstage." He said.

"I'm just not hungry okay!" I snapped at him.

"Okay Harry, calm down." Spoke Zayn.

"Sorry." I mumbled.

"Its fine Harry, Liam is just worried about you." Niall smiled at me.

"Well I'm fine, now lets just get our food and go to our hotel. After spending 3 daya in this city I can't take anymore of it." I grumbled.

The boys decided to just leave it be, thank god for that. Once I got my food I only ate about half of the salad and drank all of the water. We got into the hotel and I walked into Louis and I's room, falling onto the bed in a heap. It smells just like him. Calonge, mint and a slight trace of perfume, which I hated.

Since managment doesn't wan't to waste any money they make us share rooms. Well except for the lucky one who gets a room all to themselfs, this time it was Zayn. Unlucky for me, Louis and I got to share a room. But Louis thinks that two grown men sharing a queen size bed is 'weird' and that one of us would have to sleep on the floor. I voluntered to do it, anything to make my Boobear more comforatble.

 I crawled up the bed more and got under the covers, wrapping them around me tightly and stuffing my face into the pillow. I stripped out of my clothes so I was just in ym boxers and fell asleep with the beautiful smell of Louis surrounding me.

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So there it is, the first chapter. I know its kinds of short but its really late right now and I'm tired. Please Comment and Vote as well as fan! :D