Exotic POV
(Five Months Later)
Its been 5 months. Me & Shawn argue a lot now. Like ever other day. & the days that we don't argue he be gone. See guys now he's a drinker. I mean pissy drunk. & he's a harsh drunk to. He comes home tells me I'm fat,lazy,stupid. He just puts me down. He told me yesterday that he don't love me and he never did. He told me the only reason he with me is because I got pregnant. & I think I need to leave him cause I soon think mental abuse will turn into physical abuse. So today I'm gone go look for somewhere to stay. I got Riyonica dressed in her all pink outfit and put on some socks and her ugg boots. She took a bath last night so she's good. I then took her downstairs and put her in her high chair and put some cut up fruit down for her to eat. I went back up stairs jumped in the shower and washed up. Got out did my hygiene and then put on my all black Pink jumpsuit. I then went back down stairs after spraying some perfume on. I sat RiYRiY down on the ground. Ooh and u forgot to tell y'all she knows how to walk now!!!! I grabbed her hand & we walked out the door. I locked the house up and then I put RiYRiY her car seat in the back of my black brand new hummer and buckled her in. We drove out real fare to a good ass part of the other side of town. I wanted to be as fate as possible from him at this point cause I'm starting to hate him and I don't want to get there fully. I seen a fue good ass options and I narrowed it down to one. I called the owner and set up a day when we can meet up and talk. I asked how much was rent and she told me $1,240 a months. A little deep but barely. See k don't pay anyways house bills now so it's going to be different going back to this way buts it's nothing in not use to. She told me we can meet up tomorrow and it would be no more than a week before I could move in. I told her that's perfectly fine and we hung up with are graceful goodbyes. I'm Jair honesty happy that I don't have to deal with this abuse that much longer. My stomach started hurting so I knew that it was about that time to go eat. I had really started thinking about it. I am getting a little fat. No no. Let me not do that to myself. Now I know I'm really starting to let him get to me I need to get away ASAP. I drove back home. When I got there it was about 5:30 pm. & his car was here. I'm already knowing he's drunk and I really don't feel up to this tonight. I got my sleeping RiYRiY out the car and locked the doors. I unlocked the door to the house and to my surprise he wasn't sloppy drunk on the kitchen counter with empty bottles everywhere. Matter of a fact he wasn't downstairs at all. I went in laid RiYRiY down in her room and covered her up and gave her a kiss. I then walked into me and Shawn's room. He was sitting on the edge of the bed. I went over and sat my purse on the dresser. I then can fed my clothes and when I came back out of the bathroom that's attached to are room he was still in the same spot. It was as if he was froze. I finally just gave in and sat down next to him.
I took a deep breath. Loud a nuff that he could hear. "What's wrong?"
"I'm loosing you." He spoke loud a nuff for me to hear.
I had no words.
He spoke again. " I know why you quite......"
I was lost at what he meant. It got dead in the room for a minute. "I know you were planning on leaving."
My heart dropped. "W-W-What do you mean."
His voice was a truly sad broken down voice. "You don't have to lie....I know what was eventually gone happen."
"I'm sorry you found out this way."
" Let me guess it's nothing I can do huh." I couldn't reply it honestly broke my heart. He waited for a while.....I guess for my reply....it never came. He got up with anger and sadness and snatched his keys off the dresser walked out are open room door. I honestly think I really just fucked up my chances with what was really a good man. I know relationships aren't perfect. But what he was doing to me just made me feel unloved and down. & that in my opinion is one of the worst things to do to a woman you say you love. So in my eyes o made the best choice I knew how. You know they say sometimes if you really love someone you have to let them go. That night I went down stairs and cooked dinner. Shrimp Alfredo to be exact. It was the bomb too. When it was done I let it coo off than I went up stairs to get RiYRiY. As soon as I walked in her room her head flew up.
"Mama!!"
"Hey RiYRiY baby."
"I hungee."
"We finna eat now mama's"
"Kay." I carried her down stairs and put her in her high chair. I fixed her a plate and me a plate too. A big ass plate at that. I been eating a hole lot lately. Like tooo much! I think Ima try to slow down. I was thrown out of my thoughts when Shawn came slammed the door. The smell of liquor didn't hit my nose somethings else did. It was the smell of weed. Loud at that. He looked at me for a minute with a blank stare.
"What you cook." He then said. His eyes where so low you could barley tell they were open.
"Shrimp Alfredo." I said looking back down at my plate eating. He came in the kitchen and made him a bowl.
"You done with the food?" He asked me
"Yes." I answered. He then put the food away.He was acting as if nothing had happened earlier. I washed the dishes and watched tv with RiYRiY a little and then I layed her back down after giving her a bath. I then went in the guest room and went to bed.
