Exotic POV
I woke up today and it was my doctors appointment. I got up and 12. I got in the shower and did my morning stuff. Then I got dressed. I'm put on all white. I flat ironed my hair and grabbed my purse. I did one more mirror check then I walked out the house. Only to see Shawn walking over to me.
"So I call you and yo phone makes the noise that phones make when there off so something is telling me that you trynna avoid me. You can't act like I'm not around. What happened when are child gets older and want to know where dad is? Huh! Do you care about what the child needs!?!! You know what I can answer that myself! NO!!! Why? Cause you feel that wha bi have done to you, you can do to me by not letting me see are child. NOT realizing that the only person your hurting in end is you! Your dumb. But if you need to feel better about your self by knowing. YES I CHEATED! YES I KNEW WE WAS TOGETHER! & WAS I SATLY WHEN YOU SEEN NE WOT A NEW CHICK? YEAH! So yea I made it seem like we wasn't together but guess what?! I DID IT! & I'm sport but not letting me see my child is only makes all are lives horrible. & most of all not helping your! So you just need to think about the baby & not just your damn self. Cause as much as it is to late. It's not about you anymore. & it's not gone be."
I was lost at words. Because deep inside I knew he was rite. But all that happened was tears. I cried. I hated that he was rite. It made it seem as though he had power over me. & the last thing I wanted was for him to have power over me. I really want to be the only one who could make someone feel bad. Mann. I can't even go threw wit stuff I planned. It's horrible how I can't even make things even. I just feel like he is always going to have the power. That's fucked up when some days you feel like your trapped but on the other hand think your the only on thinking 35 steps ahead. Sometimes I feel crazy. It that what he really means by what he is saying? I really sometimes thing that I'm alone. No one could understand or come close to understanding how I feel. Haven't never been here before. Things in my life feel colder. I hope its just this pregnancy thing & in a fue months it will be over with. Man I've NEVER EVER EVER! Seen myself this lost before. & I'm starting to hate myself. I just....I just need time to think. Away from everyone,everything,every thought. Just time. Time to realize o have time to realize.
Shawn POV
I loved at her after my hurt long speech. I seen that it had got to her I mean really got to her. At first she cried then it just got deeper junto thinking. To the point where her eyes turned pitch black. I've never see no sign of hope in someone as of rite now. I could see that she was becoming more and more lost. But I truthfully do love her. But I know that she could never take me back. I know myself that it most likely wouldn't end well anyways. The last thing I want to do it put my child's mother threw more pain. I know a lot of it is already from me. I hate what I've done. & one day I hope I can repair it. But for now hopefully she will just open up to what I r said and really lets me see my child because she figures out that it really only helps us in the end. But honestly I really do understand that with no pain there is truly no gain.
