Marvel Preferences & Imagines

~Just like me?~ Bucky

A/n  This was the first ever one-shot I did. Please don't judge.

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For the past few months I have been going to see her. I have watched her, her swift movements as she throws around the only object that is provided for her in her cell, her beautiful face, plastered with pain and misery. I have watched her scream a soundless scream as she yells away the unforgiveable terrors from her head. I have seen her pace as she tries to reason with the nightmares that occur over and over.

She is like me. A makeshift weapon used by HYDRA.

When she was brought here, I had to help bring her to the cell. She was kicking and screaming and crying like it was her last time to cry. When she was safely placed in her cell, the pain and fear in her eyes shined through. She pounded on the window, but I tried to ignore her. But it was unbearable, I had to turn around, boy what a mistake that was. I saw tears running down her face, her eyes pleading for assistance as she mouthed "help me PLEASE" I stared blankly at her. I knew what state she was in. I knew what was running through her head. "Where am I? who am I?...what am I?" As I snapped out of my trance, I had quickly turned around to walk away, as I heard muffled screams and sobs.

One day I couldn't take it anymore. I had to see her. I walked to her cell, mind racing, heart pounding, palm sweaty. As I reached to cell, I saw her sitting in the corner with a blank, emotionless face. I slowly opens the door and saw her flintch a bit.

"Hello...I'm-"

"Your Bucky...I know." She said with a hoars voice, probably because she has been screaming and crying.

"Why are you here...are you going to hurt me?" She says as her voice cracked.

"No. I just want to talk to you..that's all." I weakly smile, but she snarls and rolls her eyes as she stands up.

"Oh of course, that what they always say! But I  know what you really want to do." She growls as the stands to pace to floor.

I say "No really, I want to talk to y-"

she grabs me and pushed me against the wall with great strength, strength I didn't know a woman in her state could have. "listen here bud."  She said in a dark, hurt voice "You don't know me! You don't understand. I am a monster, I was designed to kill! I have a mission. Do you know how it feels to be a deadly weapon ? Do you know who it feels to be used to the full and then left to be worthless...DO YOU?" She stared at me with angered eyes. She was beautiful even in destress.

"Yes.." I replied to her question.

"What?" She questioned. "What so you mean by yes?"

"I do know who it feels to be worthless. I know what you are going through. All I wanted to do was to come and comfort you... really I did"

She stared at me blankly. Her face softened and and tears welled in her eyes.

"But- but..how? I have been brain washed..I have been used as a weaponary tool to HYDRA, how do you know how it feels...unless you-"

"Yes. I was brainwashed, tortured, and used to kill, just like you. But look at me now! I have been helped. Yes I ,on occasion, still have nightmares and I am still trying to recover my thoughts from the past. But I'm not who I used to be. I'm am no longer the Winter Soldier. I'm Bucky Barnes!

"That means...that means with your help, I would not longer be...this monster? I will be me, the true me?"

"Im time you will be." I said, trying yo comfort her.

We talked and talked and talked before I had to leave for training.

"Bucky!" She said as I was about to walk out the door.

"Yes?" I turned to see her face, and I saw the most beautiful woman I had ever seen. Her face was a lot calmer, still a little pained, but fear free. Her eyes shined like jewels, and the slight smile made me swoon.

"Can you- if its not much to ask, can you come back tomorrow? Please" she pleaded. I smiled at her and said. "Anything for you"