He didn't know what to expect when he saw her, but he never thought he would see such a pained look on Mikoto's face. She looked like she was on the verge of a meltdown, and that was the last thing he hoped for when all he wanted was to make her happy. "Mikoto, are you okay?"
"No, Touma, I'm not okay. I've lost the person I love and I'm not going to be okay."
I can't believe that so much time was spent on my own
Just trying to figure it out all alone
Don't show emotion, let this go
He was taken aback, he couldn't quite comprehend what Mikoto had said. "What... What do you mean? The one you love?" He looked at her dumbfounded, wondering who she could be referring to. Obviously he wanted it to be him, but she had said it herself, she was over him.
"Are you stupid?!" Her sudden shouting scared not only Touma, but herself as well. "I'm- was in love with you, but you just ignored it! At this point I don't know what to think, were you just too dumb to see how I felt or did you just act like that to avoid confronting me?" She was sobbing, she didn't have the energy to keep face anymore, so she let it out. "... You left me Touma, you left me all alone and didn't tell me why. Do you know how much that hurt?"
I can't pretend that everything is still okay
Until you rightfully say what you said
The night you left me here for dead, for dead
He didn't answer, he didn't know how to. "It hurt me too, you know."
"Hurt you too? Hurt you too!? You're the one who left! You didn't have to leave, you could've stayed with me..." She balled her fists and clenched her teeth. Her knuckles turned white. "I wanted you to stay, I wanted you to see."
He looked down, the piercing glare Mikoto sent his way did nothing for his confidence. "I couldn't see it at first. I didn't know how you felt, then I left and I realized that I loved you. I still do, but it wasn't until recently that I found out you loved me too. But now, now that doesn't matter because you've moved on. I just wanted you to know that I still cared, and that I'm not leaving you again. I'll always be here for you when you need me."
She scoffed "If you expect me to just forgive you like nothing happened, you're gravely mistaken."
Tell me that you're alright
Yeah, like I really care
Why do we fight sometimes
Just like we always do
Try and make up your mind
I'll make it up for you
Try and make up your mind, your mind, your mind
"That's not what I meant, you know that as-"
"Shut up!" Her voice had grown hoarse from shouting. "I don't want to get hurt again... I, I need to just forget about you and move on. I'll stop loving you eventually, you just need to leave and I can do it faster." She knew she sounded stupid, and on top of that she was lying to his face. She didn't want him to leave and she wouldn't stop loving him, this much was obvious. At least, she thought it was.
Where did you go
How will you find yourself when your hand to hold is letting go
Where did you go
How will you tell yourself you're losing hope, losing hope
