Making A New Mark

Chapter 9-Myrie

Mryie had light blonde hair that flew to her a little under her shoulder blades. She had big light blue eyes that sparkled in the sun making anyone stare. She was pale and had light orange-ish brown freckles on her nose and cheeks. She was tiny and everyone made sure she knew it. She suffered from eating disorders before she was changed. She had a smile that would make a dark room glow. She was any guys dream come true. 

This room is dark and lifeless. Nothing here except broken dreams. I overthink everything. I think to much and I just want to stop thinking all together because maybe then I wouldn't feel like such a fuck-up. I hate that feeling. It breaks me. I'm happy I have Steph. she knows how I feel, we are one in the same with out her I would be a complete wreck. I love her. We've been friends longer than I can remember. Every memory I precious to me and I cherish all of them. 

We got closer when I left the hospital. I thought I only skipped a few meals but it turns out I didn't eat for days...weeks. When I look in the mirror I hate everything I see. I've turned into everything I said I'd never be and I disgust myself. 

That's why I need this, need all my friends and to have something I can use to take my mind of useless things, because It's not important no one understands but them. We all have secrets but with them I don't have to hid anything they know my every thought. It's kind of comforting. 

"Hey M. Are you okay?" I heard Steph's little voice behind me. "Yeah, I'm fine love. Don't worry." "Okay, well I'm going with the others to catch a meal. Do you want to come? we can go climbing." She said tempting me which made it easy to tell she really wanted me to go. "Okay." I said lighting up a cigarette. "Want one?" I asked her holding up the pack. "Sure." She took one and I lit it for her. She was good at smoking, but she always said I didn't smoke right...but I didn't. 

I just did it because it helps me stay calm and it chills my nerves like winter frost over a lake of warmth that wraps around you like a blanket. We left in a hurry, it was...wierd we usually take our time heading out. Enjoying every little piece of the world as if it's a picture painted just for us telling us a story just like the one we started with. 

"I thought we were going climbing Steph." I was confused because we were at a small diner. "I am. You have a date." "Steph! I told you I don't want to--" "He's part of the group...he likes you. Go and see." She said and with that she was gone.

I looked down at my dark ripped knee highs, worn out converse and skin tight black shirt, and grunted with anger. "I hate her right now." I said out loud to myself. 

I went in and saw Kale sitting at the table. Kale! I thought to myself. I've been 'in love' with him as long as I can remember it's his dreamy eyes and sideways smile. The way he's always laughing. Oh god. Kale.