The country baby

Chapter 20- [Deep talks and very bad dreams]

*1 Week later*

This Saturday is finally my baby shower. And I'm soooo excited. I have all my family here and I couldn't be more happy. Also my dad made an exception and he came down here yesterday. That's why I said all my family.

Everyone is still trying to take the fact that Miracle had lost her baby. I mean, it's really hard on her. So today I'm taking her out so she could get away from the baby lost.

I rode by her house and she walked out in a pair of jeans, and a jacket. "Hey." I said when she hopped in. She turned to me and smiled buckling her seatbelt. This made me feel bad.

"Want some ice cream?" I said and pulled onto the rode. She nodded. She's not talking much and I hate that. But she just went through a crisis and I should take it.

We ordered and sat at a booth around the ice cream shack in the park. Its kind of cool out but anytime of the day I and Miracle could eat ice cream. And I'm craving for it 24\7. Especially cookies and cream.

"How are you taking it?" I asked her after licking my ice cream. She put hers down and focused on me.

"I'm okay. I was really waiting on this baby. I wanted the baby. I didn't even get to know what I was having. But I guess it was just a sign," She said and looked down. I knew she was holding back tears.

"A sign of what?"

"That God didn't want me to have this baby. I thought I was ready, but look now... Its not gonna happen." She said tears running down her face slowly. I sat there in silence.

"Its okay Miracle. You still have your whole life to have a baby. It'll be okay." I said trying to comfort her. She looked up at me and her make-up was running.

"Don't tell me it's okay. Because nothing will never be okay. This will never be okay! You still have your baby! And you think you have the right to tell me, it's okay?" She stood. Tears pricked at my eyes.

"Miracle.. I'm sorry." I whispered. "I was just trying to help you-"

"Well maybe you shouldn't!" And with that she grabbed her things and walked out leaving me there speechless. Was it my fault that I said anything to her like that. If it is then I'm sorry.

*That night*

I was sitting on the couch with my family and we were watching a movie. I forgot what it's called. During the movie I got a call from Miracle. I stood up and walked upstairs to my room.

"Hello?" I said sitting on the bed.

"Yeah, Kaylee. Listen, I am so sorry for saying that to you. You were trying to tell me right and I didn't want to hear that. I'm so sorry. I feel really bad..." She said. I could tell by the sound of her voice she meant it.

"No, Miracle it's okay. I understand. You went through a lot for your baby and now he or she isn't going to make it. I should know how you feel. That's like me when I lost my grandma. So your fine." I basically laughed during the whole conversation.

She sighed, "Okay. Well I felt so guilty." After she said that her mom called her name in the background.

"Well I have to go. I'll see you tomorrow at school okay!" She was now excited. I laughed. "Alright later girlie." I said and then hung up.

I went to take a shower and then went to bed. I couldn't really sleep because of the dream I was having. Tossing and turning for the few hours I couldn't sleep.

*Dream*

We were at miracles house and the baby shower was about to start. It was just me, Miracle and her mom.

"Kaylee. Can you go to the store and get some more stringers? I have to finish the beef stew." Miracles mom called to me as I was hanging the lights from outside on the back patio.

I walked into the kitchen and she handed me some money. "Oh, and tell miracle to go with you." she said as I was heading toward the front. I walked up to miracles room and she was in the shower. I then walked back down the stairs and told her she was in the shower.

"Oh that's what I was hearing. Well then, be careful." She said to me. I nodded and headed out to my truck, got in, and drove to the Wal-Mart in town.

I rushed in and paid then walked out to the car. As I was crossing the street a car came full speed. They wasn't even stopping or slowing down. Other people around me seen the car and they just stood there watching me. I tried to run out of the way. I barely made it over to the other side but I fell on my stomach causing me to feel a sharp pain through my side. When I stood up my blouse had blood on it and I seen my baby on the ground. I fell on the ground and cried. My baby wasn't breathing or crying. Oh no.

"Help! Please somebody!" I yelled while picking my baby up. The baby was filled with blood causing it to get it all over me. At that moment I knew my baby was not living anymore. I held it in my arms and cried rocking my baby. Since my baby was gone I knew I had to be gone. I can't live with this tragedy.

Still crying I took out my phone getting blood all over the screen. I texted Miracle,

"Miracle you have been such a great friend and I'm sorry. Please don't come and find me. Just know that my baby is.." I couldn't even finish.

Once I sent it, I drove to a bridge with my baby still in my arms and cried. Standing on the bridge rail I thought, "God please forgive me," and then jumped.

*Dream end*

I woke up really fast, screaming to the top of my lounges. I would never do that to my baby.

My mom ran into my room and held me as I cried in her arms. I really hope that doesn't happen to me or my baby.

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So how's the chapter?? Guys the next chapter will be the baby shower. And it'll be so exciting. So till the next chapter sit on cheese, stuff your face with bacon, or adopted a donkey. Lol. So whatever. Alright, love you guys and keep reading. Be honest, DO YOU LOVE THIS BOOK??