Business Prince

My Birthday

I flopped onto my bed, feet sore, and my body tired. I rolled onto my back with a large grunt and sat up, coming face-to-face with my calendar. Today was circled in red marker, signaling it was an important day, but I would have remembered it even if it wasn't circled on my calendar.

Today was my birthday, and a great birthday at that. Hanako attempted to get a gift by buying all the volumes to a Manga I had no interest in reading. She thought that just because I was an "otaku" that I immediately enjoyed all manga/anime no matter what genre it was. Hanako's not very bright, but she cares, she shows it a little too much, but it's better than her not caring at all.

Hanako didn't have the patience in her to wait till the end of the day to give me her present, so we had to walk back to my place and put it away. While Hanako was in the bathroom it left me and Kuro in the living room by herself. He briefly apologized for showing up unannounced, which was answered by me jumping away from him then quietly whispering "It's okay". At this point I was used to him coming, half of the time me and Hanako made plans to go out she brought him along.

Despite still being too shy to talk to Kuro with my glasses on it's gotten better for me. Now, I know that whenever I want to have a normal conversation I just have to take off my glasses. I've tried to talk to him with my glasses still on, but whenever he looks at me, especially straight into my soul (I mean eyes), I freeze up and I get really nervous. Good looking people have always intimidated me, and it doesn't help that Hanako's always teasing me about him.

However, Kuro doesn't seem to agree with me about the good looking thing. When we were about to get on the Ferris Wheel at the amusement park, Hanako was teasing Kuro about not having a girlfriend, and how there's "a good candidate really close by", when Kuro let out a nervous and sighed, then said something about how he didn't think he would ever be good enough for any girl.

I tried to cheer him up by complimenting him on how I thought he really pulled off his glasses, and how I thought he would make a great supportive boyfriend, but I think I just made it worse because he gave me a pity smile.

I was a bit disappointed in myself after that, but despite that today was a fun day!

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I stumbled out of bed, forcing myself to stand up, I had to eat dinner or else my stomach would eat itself in the morning. Once I made it too the dining table, I saw something on it that wasn't there before I had left.

Upon further inspection I found it was a small box covered in wrapping paper. Cautiously I read the note attached to the top.

Thank you for taking care of my sister, I hope you like it. ~ Kuro

I put the note down and starred at the box in front of me, I couldn't help but smile. I can't believe he took time out of his busy schedule just to get me something. Maybe I was thinking about this a little too much, Kuro is really just a considerate person in general.

Sliding my fingers between two folds in the wrapping paper I tore it apart, revealing a limited edition, figurine from one of my favorite anime's, that I had told him about once before about two weeks ago. Of course, I was just rambling, I didn't think he was actually listening..

I quickly removed him from the box and stuck his accessories onto him, then rushed into my room to place him on my shelf next to the others. He fit in perfectly.

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Today is, the day after my birthday. It's funny how a day filled with so much joy can be followed by a day filled with only grief. Yesterday was a day dedicated to me. Now, today is about you father.

Yesterday, I went out went with Kuro and Hanako and ate my favorite foods and drank my favorite drinks. Today, I will stay in with you, and eat your favorite food and drink your favorite drinks. Instead of yelling and socializing, I will be quiet and only speak to you. I tell you a lot father. But I'm not always honest with you.

Kuro, is Hanako's older sibling, he is also the son of the man who may be trying to tear down the book store. I feel like you would understand he's doing his job but at the same time you would be upset he's aiding to the destruction of something you love. Father, you know I love you a lot, and even though you have passed you are still the most important person in my life. But I hope you understand, that recently talking and getting my feelings out hasn't been enough. You may blame, Kuro for this, for hugging me and reminding me of the warmth I had long forgotten about. Oh, no you wouldn't, you wouldn't be the happiest about it but you would understand a girl like me needs someone.

I need to feel protected, I need to feel warmth. If you were alive you'd be very suspicious of Kuro, but I know, and I know you know, that Kuro has only ever had pure reasons for doing what he does. And he's really helped me, father. When I was bitter over the thought of never seeing you again, he helped me. When you couldn't be there to have fun with me on my birthday, he was. And when you couldn't be there to take me home after I had run from my problems, he did. Kuro never really fully knew why I got angry or got sad, but he never needed to know he just tried his best to help.

And I know what you would say... He's older than me, more important than me, has had way different experiences, than I have had, and again he's the son of the man trying to tear down your beloved bookstore.

But I know that if I admitted it to you, you would just, close your eyes and sigh, then slowly nod your head and smile. You would tell me you just want me to make sure I'm making the right choices, and if it's true then I should go for it, because more than anything you want me to be happy.

Well father, the problem is, I don't know what to do.

He has helped me so many times but, he is a very important person's son, he is much older than me, and he is surrounded by mature, good looking, and older women. The more I think about it the more I worry and realize how many things could go wrong. It hurts me and makes my chest feel tight. But despite of it all, he makes me feel warm inside, has been there for me so many times, never asking for anything in return, and is so patient with the weird way I act. Recently, he occupies my thoughts.

What should I do Dad? I think, I like this person...