Numb (Camren)

It's Not So Bad

Mr. Martinez, you don't understand! I can't work with Lauren!" I tell my teacher frantically after class was over.

"Why would that be Ms. Cabello?" He asks not looking us from the laptop he was typing on.

"I'm just not a big fan of Lauren. We've had a difficult past." I try explaining to the man who seems to not care about what I'm saying.

He finally looks up to me, "Camila, I have heard from teachers you had in the past that you were the best of friends with Lauren. I think that if you work together and figure everything out, you could rekindle that friendship. You are working with Lauren and that is final, is that clear."

"Ugh!" I scream letting my frustrations out as I stomp my way to my next class.

***

It was finally the end of the school day and I got to go home. I was silently thanking god that the day was ending because Lauren was in all of my classes except for two. It was infuriating. At least I got to pick my seat in all the rest of my classes, striving to sit as far away from Lauren as I could.

When I got out of the school building, there was a mysterious figure standing near my car. It was a girl and it was not dinah because she was too small to be the polynesian girl. I walked up to my car getting ready to yell at the person to back away from my car. The girl turned around when I approached her, it was Lauren. Of course, it was the earth was purposely punishing me. Why am I the one being punished, I am the nice one. Lauren is the one who abandoned me.

We sat in an uncomfortable silence for a good five minutes before I decided to speak up, "Were you going to ask me something or can I go home now? My day is stressful enough without you in it."

She flinches at my words but what can I say? When people hurt me I put walls up to defend myself and sometimes it can be a bit harsh. She kinda deserves it though.

"I was wondering if you wanted to get a jumpstart on a project? We could come to my house or we could go to yours if you want." She says softly.

"Are you just going to act like we have been best friends forever? News flash, Lauren, we are not in anyway friends nor have we been for a really long time. I can't believe you can just act like nothing happen between us. You abandoned me and I had no one for a long long time. You think that's fun? It's not. So back off. I'd rather get an F on this project then act all buddy-buddy with you." I snap.

Her soft look turns hostile, "You think I want to do this either, Camila? I don't. God, you don't know how many times I have regret ever hurting you. If I could just go back in time and never leave you. I would do it without skipping a beat but I can't, Camila, and I hope you can forgive me. If you can't forgive me forever, then at least for this project. That's all I'm asking."

"Fine." I sigh and her posture loosens, "Meet me at my house.You know how to get there."

I get in my car and she strolls away to hers. Once I get in my jeep, I let my head bang against the steering wheel. This is going to be a long day.

***

Lauren's P.O.V

I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. Just knock on the front door then work on the project with Camila. It's not that difficult. You're Lauren Jauregui, the badass. I honestly don't feel like I am a badass right now. I am freaking out internally. I should have just agreed to take the F. If I don't even have the courage to knock on the freaking door, how am I going to be able to work on this project without passing out from freaking out too much.

When I was about to turn around and walk away the front door opened. Camila was on the other end with a confused look on her face, "How long were you standing there, Lauren?"

"Ten minutes." I mumble.

"Ten minutes?" Damn, she heard me, "Why were you just waiting here? Why didn't you knock on the door like a normal person?"

"I was afraid."

"I'm sorry about yelling at you earlier. I was frustrated and school isn't helping." Camila apologises leading me into her house.

"It's fine." I say shrugging.

"No, it's not fine. I shouldn't have yelled. I know you are the same Lauren I knew forever ago. You had every right to be scared." She holds her arms out but I turn my head questioning what she is doing, "Lo, it's a hug. Now come on, It's just me, Camz."

I smile as I lean in to hug her. She used the name I used to call her. It brought back the good ol' memories of when we used to be best friends. I miss being best friends with her. She always knew how to put a smile on my face and my heart swells whenever I'm around her. This feeling was an odd feeling, one I have never felt before. It something new but I like it. I just hope Camila will forgive me after we do the project so we can be friends again. I have missed her so much.